10 years earlier, in hospital, but I found strategies to maintain health. Then completed electrical apprenticeship. Here I am as successful telecommunications foreman for a 2 year project.

Everyone in the world wants happiness,
Lack of resources causes crappy stress,
In subtle or obvious ways we search,
On the edge of want and need we perch,
Some of us so sure we are by ourselves,
I choose to think we’re more like books on shelves,
When we read what we want we can create,
Whether fortune is planned we can debate,
Making our own chance, is it possible?
I think we can, but I have losses still,
This work, and even misfortune at times,
All part of life as the sun or moon climbs,
By having faith, we make the most of chance,
By keeping pace, we take a winning stance

Painting: Lee Matuga

Success will be achieved, by working with true intentions,
Messing with destiny just would be way too pretentious,
Strive for what you need, and recognize your best balance,
Every step you take is a certain kind of challenge,
In the depths of anxiety one moment, and elated in the next,
If heaven was a mood that stays – that would be by far the best,
Emotional stability is desirable for good health,
But without a bit of variation, joy would be hard to tell,
I think about what I have, all I love, then sometimes troubles,
Work on all the problems, enjoy good time and hope it doubles,
Cool to stay calm and optimistic, even when times are really tough,
True calm helps us work through problems, and can make them easy enough,
We face hardships and privileges that make us judge our world,
Maybe a conscious decision or a wise genetic pearl

We all have something to say, at least some of the time.  Sometimes we keep it to ourselves…  Sometimes we expand our views by sharing them – and entertain ideas purposefully.  Words can impact us internally as well as socially.  Language can be influenced by mood, and can also impact mood in the present and in the future.  In some instances we imagine a world that lives in the moment of expression – and that can be perpetuated through focus.  These are just a few thoughts, inspired by poetry.

Am I finally alive?

I have climbed through one hundred lifetimes of solitude, dead to the world…

No one to turn to – a rock frozen in a glacier,

Unable to move forward towards my goals any faster than frozen water spilling,

You are my fire, and waves of life are jettisoned into oceans of new existence,

Each pool of dreams now reflecting power,

The sun, moon and stars shine their light in the tide of change,

Quietly on the shore, we walk along,

Surrounded by the new world, at first uncertain, stepping carefully,

Slowly becoming aware that this world is immaculate,

Is it just a dream?  Will the floods seep into the sand and rocks quenching only mere moments?

Or will we be swept up into true devotion – drowning worries and doubt and making this world whole?

Our steps are not chosen for us, but they are guided,

And I stretch my hand out to you,

Dying for your love, reaching for you,

Just as the stars in the sky align for each other,

Aiming for immortality

In the 1990’s I went to university. I had to do a lot of thinking to do.

Outlet

My thoughts are careening, corroding,
I’m crying foul if I don’t find some better power,
Won’t be upset at all, to slip into a free fall,
No wreckage diving through these clouds and icy showers,
Our life can be like the road, each corner’s showed, only when the wheel is spinning round,

The destination saves, brighter days,
At the next turn you see stripes on the roadside stand still,
Just know where to park it, and when you should start it,
That way you have the best chance to live all of life’s thrills,
Each day the earth will still move, Surely time proves exactly what we have always found,
Average days, blend into haze, but pure excitement saves the days by leaps and bounds,

Maybe your next life time, will be the right time to cash in on all of your reserves,
If you are lucky and hard-working then tomorrow you may get what you deserve,
You can’t wait for karma to kick in,
But if you drive steady cool, and stay fair to rule,
You may find it all comes around,

Make the best choice, use your mind’s voice,
And be poised to ensure you keep raising the bars,
Know when there’s time at hand, its best to plan,
If you see their light, keep shooting for the stars,
There no use waiting, and then fading – pretending it will all happen by itself,
Our brain catapults best results, if we choose the right stations, learn patience, and stealth,

My thoughts are brightening, enlightening, I’m still fighting to make it all work out,
There is no losing, just choosing and I am cruising past all those irritating doubts,
I know what I need, and I don’t have greed, or lead a distant co-existence,
We are all out there, and that’s exactly where, we all live to learn, burn, and mend,
Life can be so serene, or totally mean, – What you give: you will get back in the end

Frozen moment isolated beyond compare,

Deepened lakes of unknown origin seem so fair,

All that we see is chosen by previous actions,

Yet certain times we can only think of one thing,

Each of us with perspective totally unique,

We define our whole world by all our own means,

Focus, fixate, all is known in what we perceive,

So soon we find the future and what we will believe

Sometimes we have anxiety and feel like there is trouble brewing, when really it is just change.  With good health, we are less likely to get our lines crossed.  In such a complex world, it helps to be aware of that power – that imminent change.  The awareness can protect us and make us ready.  It is important not to let it distort, or become exaggerated.  Reading too much into things can interfere, and cause us to get tangled in our own web – that each one of us weaves.

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Trouble is in the wind,
At least that’s what it says,
If it’s fine all depends,
How strong your effort stays,

We’ll get them what they want,
A wicked web we weave,
Won’t stop loving you,
I try not to believe,

I’m busy all the time,
Listening – I receive,
No matter what is said,
It’s hard not to believe,

Is it just a feeling, or is it the truth in disguise?
Looking up above, I see answers in the skies,

Trouble is in the rain,
These clouds can fill my days,
If it’s fine all depends,
On what my quick thought says,

We’ll get you what you want,
Uncertain sights and sounds,
Can’t stop loving you,
And peace of mind I’ve found,

I’m busy all the time,
This complex life we lead,
Understand what makes sense,
And if I should believe,

Is it just a feeling, or is it the answer that I need?
Looking through today, tomorrow must be free