It often feels like we’re being pulled in two or more different directions.
Of course,
We are
with many possible fates.
Of a handful of most likely possible paths, one path is evidently connecting to us at all times.
Outcomes can be within our control
like if we move with intention.
As we are pulled by our only fate, we join the energy and can guide the direction to the outcome just as a ripple or a wave connects to its own further peaks and valleys, part of the same material, within one same space and time dimension.
To guide the outcome,
we make new ripples.
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Weather and environment are around us and run through us.
Their systems and patterns are built from previous ‘ripples,’
chains of events in perpetuation of energy or the change of energy, material and it’s shape as it collides with, joins with or passes by other possible occupants of reality.
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Being pulled in different directions?
Or pushed.
Specifically I refer to the condition *between possibilities*
And how our own belief, action & decisions influence which reality manifests.
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I am posting because, Xmas break, I have more time to decide which direction to focus on.
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Writing has always been a hobby.
I took initiative and special classes, publishing poetry in school journals in grades 4-7.
That’s a while ago.😳
Since then??!!
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Lots has happened.
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My experience?
Atypical
Appreciated
but at other times misunderstood
similar to my personality.
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Writing is a direction that I follow; however, we need the career piece too.
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I worked in the trade as a licensed electrician for only eight years, four plus years of that as a foreman and before that five years as an apprentice and also in security wiring during my BA in psychology (grad 97).
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Trades are a great career for many.
Was for me.
I’m strong but due to my stature and personality, people at times
tested me and made me work harder than others, leading to injury *without question.*
My functioning is good now
but I’m sensitive to constant re-injury in the demands of the trade.
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So trades: out
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Writing: ongoing
Research?
Takes intense focus
Once again
It also depends on who you know and how well you get along.
Proving academic prowess through degrees, hard work & opportunity leaves me wondering how to find opportunity, have positive impact and sustain a living.
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I am engaged in projects.
Prior to my current involvement,
I published an article in an academic journal as coauthor.
Cool study.
Who do you know?
And how can one ever get ahead
without acceptance and paying a tonne of money for a degree that only *with hope* has some employment value?
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Trades out.
Research: a stretch!
Support work: ongoing
January will be ten years paid support work, although didn’t get regular part-time hours until 2018
And then full-time since 2021.
Before that, casual work
And still full-time electrician until November 2015.
Who cares?!!
I’m just thinking online.
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You know
Under all the grit
I like the people♥️
I would like to be understood better.
I observe things and at times can go into depth
for better or not.
As a front-line worker
with a different understanding
And diverse background
I could contribute more
It’s difficult to get that across.
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So:
Writing: Explore
Research must reach out to me
Support: Ongoing
Maintain, build understanding,
stand up for everyone’s rights.
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I also do volunteer mental health talks for kids and youth.