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Invest Only in Peace and Love Dealings

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What do I see

As I step out my front door

Grateful?

Nature reaching heights in beauty

That don’t come easy

Always

In some ways

We are spoiled like kids

Brilliant rewards but bitter battles

Starting low at the ground

Brave in the system

Each day we enjoy

And suffer

Only Peace and Love matters

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What do I see

As I step into the world

Fateful?

Nature teaching rights in duty

That don’t come easy

Always

Surely, we are loyal to this

Resilient species

Even a natural rival

Hard to see like the wind

Built in the system

Each day fight or flight

We’re tougher

As for Peace and Love I fall

**

What do I see

As I step into the future

Labeled?

Nature preaching insight so moody

It won’t flow easy

Always

To understand we toil in fits

In millions of mirrors

Images of a martyr

Stand alone or are found

We are the system

Each day perception

Our buffer

Feeling makes Peace and Love smarter

**

What do I see

And What is the truth?

Because looks can be deceiving

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What I hear

Is water lapping

against the shore

by the side of a lake

and it soothes

 *

Spirits embraced

Are not seen or known

We wander down

Truth isn’t shown

The enchanting sound

Is a flag that’s flown

Unfairly

**

All I see

Is driven by need

Energy flowing to or from it

 *

What we need

Is what we’re tapping

Feet on the ground

Won’t hide a mistake

That we choose

 *

Spirits displaced

That aren’t seen or known

Let’s clamber down

For truth to be shown

Admit and reach out

Specifically those

Unsparing

**

What do I see

As I live my life today

Grateful?

Nature reaching heights in beauty

That don’t come easy

Always

In some ways

Life is royal and rich

Filling finances and freezing feelings

Shunning those fallen down

Forgot by the system

Each day we enjoy

And suffer

Invest only in Peace and Love dealings

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Include Everyone (Sunshine After a Very Wicked Storm)

Never know the name of the game

Or the social norm

until I’m playing again

Oh the pain!

Life is like sunshine after a

Very wicked storm

or a picnic in the rain

How I’m praying

*

Include Everyone

Have some fun

Bring it on

Don’t forget the storm

When it’s gone

Bring it on

Ride again

**

Never mind the mess

Are you impressed

By the social storm?

Help yourself

Just say when

I’m all in

Whatever you want

Let your

Welcome be well-worn

Permanent fixtures are blessed

In the end

*

Include Everyone

Have some fun

Bring it on

Welcome’s warm

Threads we don

Bring it on

Comfort’s best

**

Welcome sounds of the Earth breathing

The sky sighs as the storm is leaving

The air is fresh with renewed energy

Day glistens

Life launches from trees

Sparkling fresh

Each creature

Wakes up bright from dreaming

Birds Twitter

Bees achieving

Frog announces peace for now

Then a collective “Wow!”

**

Never be the one without sun

Try to be socially warm

And have good fun

And get work done

Life can be chaotic like a

Very wicked storm

or a good reason to run

Or having none

*

Include Everyone

Make some fun

Bring it on

Don’t forget the storm

But when it’s gone

Get it on

Till you’re done

***

Do it again

Bring it on

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Embrace the Place Where Shadows Stay

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Parades like a peacock

Around social circles

Inside he hides humility

That won’t show in his purpose

*

Fading fast in heavy grass

Head down as the tale perks up

His pride won’t die, he has ability

Because of love in surplus

*

Nothing done wrong

Life like a song

Just Peace and Love he worships

**

Obeys the hand he got

Ignores social knock-offs

Aim to prove all he sees

Their bluff to him: a lost cause

*

She rakes in wins as he begins

But they make him nervous

Her cry inside no others see

Because no tears will turn up

*

No fallen rain

A hidden pain

No truth can be as pure as

**

Amazing claim he makes now

Desperate to connect

Stakes a life on dreams

At least ones he can protect

*

Lends his ears to love he hears

Music and folk he respects

Strength resides in bends and slides

Quick-picking flies how he reflects

*

A web she weaves

He never leaves

His soul she resurrects

**

Sustains breath in his sprit

and prays no one objects

Here, there and everywhere

Simple jealousy upsets

*

Each day-to-day he lives and pays

Experience he can’t forget

Skeptics unfairly stop and stare

What they don’t get, they reject

*

View of the sun

We each have one

The image that projects

**

Home is where the heart is

Everywhere we go

But if our heart is hidden

Home we may never know

*

She was treated wrong

All day long

When she reached out

They turned away

*

Rules of fools

Didn’t allow

True words she would say

*

So her heart

Was hidden away

and her shadow came to play

**

Chastised like a spider

At home an outsider

Inside she hides humility

That’s what they’ve denied her

*

All she tried they’ve defied

They aren’t the ones to guide her

Her pride won’t die

Peacefully

She needs a web that’s wider

*

Create a norm

Instate a storm

Include each and every rider

**

Invading as a glider

Social justice-minded

Applied fine agility

To find a spot beside her

*

Caring wide for those he spied

Sharing words that wouldn’t chide her

In moments they had solidarity

But our system is the great divider

*

No human bond

Or care beyond

The majority decider

**

Rain could still immerse us

In our social circles

Lives with more tranquility

Trapped beneath the surface

*

The pain’s the same as curses

Unspoken words or verses

Public codes of civility

Stigma will never nurse us

*

Feeling unsaid

Love left for dead

While the richest fill their purses

**

A bright bird becomes demure

Larger-than-life tourist

Why project misery?

Their caring is the surest

*

The purest words are rarely heard

From social usurpers

Power lies with such hostility

Our culture kills or cures us

*

We need magic

That isn’t tragic

Kindness that conjures us

**

Kind is a heart making good

Anywhere it goes

But if a heart is hidden

Hope may never show

*

He was treated wrong

All day long

When he reached out

They made him pay

*

Fuelled by rules

They sat and frowned

True words they wouldn’t say

*

So their hearts

hid away

and his shadow came to play

**

Day fades far behind trees

Beyond social safety

In night they fight fragility

Boundary in dreams

*

Goals of peace just won’t cease

Labeled disordered or diseased

Kindness treated as disability

Blind system is a beast

*

No caring voice

Or sharing joys

Blood-thirsty rich do as they please

**

Moon peaks past tired trees

Mirrors social deep-freeze

Awake always in fear’s proximity

Tears shine and can’t appease

*

Lone star greets, Our eye meets

Adheres to day’s defeats

Strive to stifle anxiety

Vision with no light cheats

*

Save grace

To change this place

Fierce Hope never retreats

**

Sunrise with acute focus

Today still seems dangerous

No social responsibility

Politician rich and famous

*

Those we chose no one opposes

Approach a door and it closes

Attack a lack of accountability

So clear no one chose this

*

Pride past dollars

Lifelong scholars

Stigma in control imposes

**

Disgrace that is ludicrous

Unfairly overtaken indigenous

Allies denied connectivity

Kind people treated heinous

*

Striking poses and We know this

Few between truly show this

Pray, don’t say “futility”

Optimism thrives like roses

*

Ever-fertile Earth

Cultural rebirth

Sun and moon that tows us

**

Home is where the heart is

Everywhere we go

If our hearts are hidden

Home we never know

*

People treated wrong

For so long

Try to reach out

But get turned away

*

Rules uncool

Not allowing

True words we have to say

*

So our hearts

Get hidden away

Embrace the place where shadows stay

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Digging Out the Bottom of a Well

You have no idea

But how could you tell?

Hard to see

the ingenuity

I’m digging out the bottom of a well

*

Shovels and pitchforks

You can hunt me down

I’ll be right here if you take a look

*

But you probably won’t see

Past the distance

Just me

Water’s rising

And it’s darker than all Hell

**

I had no idea

But how could I tell?

Hard to see

through the mystery

I’m digging out the bottom of a well

*

Visions and voices

As water rushes

You’ll understand if you send down the bucket

*

But you might not see

Past mistake and misery

The water’s for you

Since today’s hotter than all Hell

**

I never thought life would get to this

Me explaining

why I’m digging

*

Only drink on some days

I hope the new well pays

There’s rain

but the drought is not a figment

*

Converging streams

Beneath the clay

Raging rapids hidden away

So I dig faster

till a higher level stays

**

Many thought I’d never surface

Buried me deep

That’s why I’m digging

*

For me drinking’s OK

But I’d like the chance to bathe

There’s trickles

But the flow is insignificant

*

Emerging clean

Was always pure

Rising rivers are for sure

So I hold my breath

Till a cleansing current cures

**

We had no idea

But how could we tell

Hard to see

The sanity

When I’m digging out the bottom of a well

*

Shovels and pitchforks

I’m getting way down

I’ll be right here if you take a look

*

I hope you will see

Past the distance

Just me

My eye’s shining

As metal sparks on rock in our Hell

**

I have an idea

That I’d like to tell

Plain to see

Our chemistry

As I dug out the bottom of the well

*

Vision and voices

Our love gushes

We understand and fill our hearts

Not just our cup

*

And now you can see

Past mistake and misery

The water’s clean

and Sparks of light

Get us thru all Hell

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Making Today’s Adventures OK

*

You can brighten my day

By saying my name

Playing my game

In these new adventures

*

You can lighten the way

Finding new fame

Grinding the shame

and then just dispense with

All false pretences

Stop raising the bar

For those down so far

Or kept out by fences

Or schools too expensive

*

I can brighten the day

If you do the same

True love won’t be tamed

In our grand adventures

*

We can light up the way

Forgetting the blame

Protecting the flame

and then get intense with

Our uncommon senses

Not chasing a star

We are who we are

Every last one of us

**

This is our chance to make it

Life happens just once

Let’s engage it

*

Embrace love and faith

Let’s do this together

Just need to keep pace

Lend a hand to forever

Help save this place

No matter what happens

Life is a promise

Not meant to be broken

Don’t break it

Let’s make it

**

Let’s brighten today

By taking new aim

Staking a claim

Our new adventures

*

Let’s light the way

With a flash and a frame

Be so glad we came

and not apprehensive

A dream comprehensive

Like an amazing car

With the door ajar

Climb in and commence with

Love that’s extensive

It makes today

OK

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Common Rarities

So common are the bright colours of life

We don’t even notice their bold beauty

Perched on years as if we can’t fly high

Looking precarious as if it’s our duty

Standing out to show off our difference

Vulnerable to seem too bright

To the sky we may lift up our plans

As the Earth crawls through the night

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So common are the fine workers of Earth

They don’t even notice our dedication

Squirming for years as if we don’t have a worth

Looking ahead with no hesitation

Fitting in despite all our difference

Vulnerable to be in the light

To the sky we may lift up our plans

And for dreams we patiently fight

*

So rare to get a word in edgewise

Or share a story of what we’re about

Diverse wellness is certainly the best prize

Include health, peace and love without doubt

Together we climb up to new heights

Or dig energy of Earth below

Guided by sure stars and cool nights

A sun ray is free and with calm care we grow

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No Kind Soul Should Feel Out of Place

From dark to light

I wriggle and writhe

I dig through the earth

To reach up to the skies

With darkness we close

up for the night

Warmth within grows

and dreams hold us tight

Tulips open again

with morning grace

Designed for beauty

Each colour and face

No kind soul should feel out of place

*

From Spring to Fall

I creep and crawl

I fly for my life

My big world seems small

With winter we hide

Climb or hit the wall

Back to the Earth

Fresh wings will haul

Sunlight shines again

With eternal grace

Designed to reach

Every corner and space

No kind soul should feel out of place

*

Soul comes from drive

To be alive

To share and thrive

For Love we strive

*

We must live life together

Care more and save face

Don’t squish our boots

on beauty and kindness

*

With grace we share

All of the Earth

We must leave extra space

For those that have fallen behind us

So that the sky can find us

*

Clear as day and night

What’s wrong and right

We share the earth

We share your light

With bias we choose

Reasons to fight

No resources to lose

So keep kindness in sight

Good sense comes round again

Our human grace

Designed to survive

With wellness keep pace

No kind soul should feel out of place

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Life is All About You

Time has reached this point

We can never turn back

Convenience shields our eyes from

Atrocity and devastation

From within and around

Certain truths attack

A fair chance to live life well

With warmth and celebration

Many lose their lives in this place

To injustice and

Casual desecration

*

From my perspective

It’s easy to unpack

Convenience to be despised

I try

Reciprocity and appreciation

But within and around

Certain truths attack

A fair chance to share life well

With warmth and celebration

Together we lose true equity

to Injustice with

Demographic suffocation

*

I am no one

To many

But I know about you

I heard what happened to you

Life is about you

*

I am no one new

But I know about you

I hate what’s happening to you

Life is about you

*

In the land you live in

Save your faith and never give in

Push for peace

All around you

It will seem so hard to do

Strive for health

And to be you

Life is all about you

*

If my ways have hurt you

I hope that you have kept track

Convenient are the lies

Oblivious toxicity and

appropriation

From within and around

Certain truths attack

A fair chance to live life loud

With warmth and celebration

Many of us have lost truth in this place

To injustice and

Casual allocation

*

In the land we live in

We must never give in

Push for peace

Far and true

Find hope in what you do

Nurture strength

And be you

Life is all about you

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Brushing Off Our Dreams

Shaking off our dreams

We cleanse our thoughts in the first morning seconds

Like brushing sand off a seashell

And adding it to our collection

Steamy showers wash away blurred vision

Clean the new day

A pristine treasure

Pure life we find in waking thought

Lucidity emerges

To fulfill our wishes

*

Breaking into scenes

The fierce challenge of each day beckons

Like the test that we have to take

Then we ace it with affection

Rolling waves carry us across oceans

Find the new day

Take good measure

Sink feeling into every thought

Flowing emotion surges

Riding high with calm wishes

*

Soaking in our dreams

Keys to reality from early check-ins

Like calming waves over castles

And our footprints’ resurrection

Streaming life we calmly change the channel

Run a new day

Squishing pleasure

Into boots of bubbles and soothing thought

Washing away anxious urges

Gratitude for sea-sides’ sandy riches

Peace in knowing our own wishes

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The Truth Surfaces

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I feel incomplete

Not in defeat

I must confess

I aim to be perfect

as is

*

I don’t stress about it

and though the rest may doubt it

I am always trying for the best

For all intents and purposes

*

The best is calm

Or exciting

Always caring

I hope, delighting and kind

When the truth finally surfaces

*

If I’m in to deep

and I can’t sleep

I must confess

I deal with so much stress

As is

*

I manage anyway

Doesn’t matter what some say

I truly try for the best

For all intents and purposes

*

The best is calm

Yet igniting

Always caring

I hope

inviting

better bests

When the truth finally surfaces

*

Aim for peace and love

Not gross wealth held above us

Restricting freedom and safety

For personal gain

*

No unjust pressure on workers

Encourage instead

Offer provision and care

Don’t leave us for dead

If we can’t produce

and you see us as worthless

*

Has the deal gone to Hell?

How has it? Please tell

You know what to do

And you don’t

*

For faith I will leap

No hill is too steep

I’ve come to expect

The effort is worth it

*

I don’t stress about it

and know I can’t live without it

I really try for the best

For all intents and purposes

*

The best is calm

and providing

Always caring

Surviving

Find peace and love

When the truth finally surfaces

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Phantom Birds of Prey

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Join the phantom

For seconds

Caught in our tracks

Anoint the shy moon

That flickers

Wake up

sleeping facts

Both Mystic and Mundane

See the

Distant morning glow

Promises blue

Then escapes

Taking all that we know

Magic wanes

Curves out of sight

Cloudy moment

Takes

The last Dream of night 

*

Join birds of prey

High above

Sailing over the day

Rise to the hunting sun

That hovers

Saves us

Diving for prey

Both Nurturing and Vital

Seize the

Blue forever

Gives us every

Last minute

Then takes all hours together

Magic stays

On fire through time

Perfect sphere

Carves

All corners of our Mind

*

Join the phantom?

Bird of prey?

Stay true to the dream

At the points of our talons

Take the pain away

Everyday

With immaculate balance

*

Join the phantom

Birds of prey

We are all

Living the dream

Rise to the challenge

Work hard and pay

Everyday

Gaping mouths at our talons

*

Join the calm dream

Taking over

Peace of mind begins

The choice to persevere

Pervading

Discover strengths within

Both Physical and Mental

See the flame inside as pure

Promises true

And Profound

The moment is

Now for sure

Magic stays

As the candle burns

Lights up all our dreams

and all Life’s

Twists and Turns

*

Join the phantom

Birds of prey

We should all

Dare to dream

Spot truth in just one glance 

For wishes to stay

Everyday

Sun and moon keep our balance

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Join the phantom

Birds of prey

Flying high

Above the Earth

Imagine days as dreams enhance

Like words we say

Everyday

With vision we find balance

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The Day Holds My Hand

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Waking up in the morning

and the day takes my hand

No rushing

Just calm

A friend with things planned

Put on stay-at-home clothes

some casual sandals

Follow steep stairs holding

the railing’s smooth handles

Everyday routine

pulls me into the yard

The sun still seems shy

and Clouds stay on guard

*

Beyond dewy branches

Her vision loyally glows

Looking through me and to me

with everything that she knows

I did not once forget her sight

As I entered the night

And if clouds should stay

She will be bright anyway

She is not shy of me

She just always is free

and That’s the way it should be

Happily

*

Ferocious like an alarm clock

Yet friendly as hot coffee

The day takes firm hold of me

Dark hues of fine brews wafting

I pour two full cups

put creamer in one

Open curtains and blinds

Then soothed by the sun

The kind day reels me in

A fine way to begin

Now find a way to win

So I share a grin

*

Breakfast is essential

Most important meal of the day

and This day has potential

In more words than I can say

With good mood and food

We graciously fill

There’s flowers on the table

By the window sill

I see them still

When I do the dishes

(As in daily wishes)

and Stand on guard

With no holds barred

This day I bet

will surely get

far more delicious still

*

Huge challenge or small chore

Before we can enjoy these days

Find the right frame of mind

To get through

Absolutely any phase

The bitter fight we face

Can fade if we attain our needs

These times we’re given Hope

In care and strength

A good day exceeds

With her voice

Our patience leads

*

The kitchen is clean

As it has ever been

Lint off kid’s jeans I preen

Fill the washing machine

Now the laundry is on

and recycling gone

I work on my chores

As the vacuum roars

(Now cats scramble hard core

across a newly swept floor)

Home I pick up and tidy

My time more than biding

*

Though for hours

Our faces hiding

Accomplishments are

Now presiding

What we completed

in the morning

Arrives with kindness and fair warning

Now we approach a fine midday

Major projects underway

Look for new work

Paint a room

Build our future

Nearly noon

Hope is for sure

Like a favourite tune!

*

Electric lunchtime

with my stereo blaring

On inspiration

Music never sparing

In a mood for

Rhythmic heights I crave

and Tasty leftovers

Nuked in the microwave

Elevated by sounds

Can’t get any hotter

Sun pounds the table

I drink ice water

Day’s warm shiny melody

Fell on me and I caught her

*

Stress release

Savouring

Heated words of a song

Now a tasty guitar break

How can that be wrong?

Strum along

Play the lead

Acoustic

all I need

My world listens to me

And her motions I read

Now she tells me

“Time to get back to work”

I bow to her

Logic pure

The groovy lunch was a perk

And I am no jerk

*

More than song choice to be made

in this early afternoon

Do I polish off nuisance chores

As our morning-coat is strewn?

Or challenge the stars

To impact the Earth?

Day still guides my hand

Her world and sky

All it’s worth

Together we make accurate estimations

and Set our sights on immaculate destinations

*

That very moment

We went to go for a walk

The skies opened up

Hard rain started to rock

Our guessed destiny

turned out stationary

Crank the tunes back up

In a sophisticated library

Work on Art and Science

Effort never stops

When the music’s over

Listen to rapid rain drops

A sound nothing tops

*

Yesterday’s season

Similar to today

but still keeps changing

as we make our way

While sun lights up life

Trees show us the path

Like buildings to sidewalks

These guides do our math

Natural structures frame our choice

To get through we need

Vision and Voice to share our world

and we need to agree

and with

New

Moments

Rejoice

*

Enduring pain

More than before

The day at work

We can’t ignore

These days are here now

NOT evermore

Make a stand

With a faithful plan

*

So we reach for the dollar

No matter what we do

We always have a wall here

That we have to break through

The anguish and injury

Seems so unfair

Is anyone aware?

*

Society that holds others back

Must be kept in check

While we get life on track

with the world that we elect

Help the Days to care

So life can be repaired

As we all learn to share

And to be more aware

Disparity is a fact

Let opposites attract!

*

Hold on to what we love

Push forward with our grace

And for what we need and lack

Work hard to make a case

and Everyone should save face

Make a pact for this place

Like

Make sure we can ALL keep pace…

*

Returning from our walk

We meander back home

We talk cheerfully

I recite music in a poem

Invigorated now

We let go of hands

As the door opens

We hold on to romance

Anticipating

Children waiting

We all care for constant needs

with no debating

Or overrating

We make a meal that feeds

and So the day proceeds

We take each other’s leads

Everyone Does Good Deeds!

*

A parade to the food dish

Children and chickens first in line

Hamsters and guinea pigs

From the kitchen they fine dine

A dash to the bowl

For the cats and dogs

Drop more food off for

Goldfish and dwarf frogs

Then the tough teens are hungry again

Nothing can stop the daily feed train

For life we sustain

I can’t complain!

*

Dinnertime and

We Live to Eat well

We have what we need here

and Stories to tell

The struggle is real

Splurge on nice meals

a Healthy choice today

Comfort food helps us heal

With a “Cheers” to be kind

Remind and Unwind us

The days grace and peace

Sometimes will find us

If not too demanding

Simply outstanding

*

Time to spare

Seems unlikely

Yet with care

We are mighty

Watch TV or do some writing

Still some chores may seem inviting

A brand new puzzle or best game

Raise our spirits if it’s just the same

I’ll say goodnight to the day’s last fame

And greet dark skies

The stars lay claim

Still in my heart always

Is the day’s

Eternal

Amazing

Flame

*

Meals are done

like the day

Setting sun

down to lay

Night won’t shun

Words I say

So for fun

On our way

Poem run

Last sun ray

and As one

Work and play

Peace is won

We all pray

Carry a tonne

and We pay

Now at last

Rest we may

Tomorrow

Will be

More than Okay

Another

Stunning

Day

*

All

The

Way

*

The day holds my hand

***

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Everything You Do

Everything you do

Is too good to be true

But then suddenly you do

Something so brand new

Now I’ll always believe in you

*

Everything you do and say

Makes me feel so good today

and suddenly you do

Something so brand new

*

Feels so right

It’s happening fast

We feel so tight

True love will

Always

Last

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2020 A (Covid) Christmas Carol

**

Cackling in the back of my penthouse suite closet

What I thought was a skeleton is my potential future-ghost

Shaking for medicine that must be taken now

I would like to pause it

I want a cure most

Will the present mask come off,

Reveal beauty infinite

or will it carve the future

getting so close?

*

Heckled by attendees of a courthouse for my whole life

As the judge beckoned me, I made an offhand boast

Question of sanity must be taken now

I’d like the chance to answer

In the spirit of the host

Will this disaster end

As we adapt to it?

How do we chart the future?

I guess no one knows

**

Then I heard a voice from inside my skull

The others heard it too and then there was a lull

The family carries on

This guy’s hard to the core

“I am right here, who are you looking for?”

The crowd moves away, the calm man was outrageous

“They don’t hear me” and I began to count my pages

*

Sifting through years, memories, goals and plans

Night started early and the moon understands

I sat back in my seat and reflected on the day

The tides of life are changing, plans must get underway

I scrolled and scrolled, “There is nothing here”

I cleared my throat loudly and began to fear

*

In words coming next

too hard to debunk all

Thought it made sense

to call my old uncle

He listens to me

But won’t see the whole story

Who I may need to talk to

is a guy that ain’t sorry

Once a friend of mine

now just seems sinister

May need an exorcist or

Just a Xmas-time minister

*

They said I need faith

and good sanitizer

I keep my chin up

Don a mask and seek advisors

Most I find from my chair

With my hand-held office

And avoid anyone

Who asks what this cough is

I sat and felt stressed

But couldn’t get any bolder

Heard a whisper in the dark

Felt a tap on my shoulder…

*

It was all I could do

To not scream out loud

The past was awakening

Vehemently proud

First thing I thought is

Maybe it was our cat

But he was on the floor beside me

And not at my back

The whistling wind

Turned into a chorus

As I’d fallen asleep

Dreams wouldn’t ignore us

*

“You’re nothing!

A flake,

A washed-up electrician!”

A voice was seething

Up rose his apparition

“Remember those years

When we laughed together?”

“Yes” I said frankly,

“and all the bad weather”

Behind my back

He had laughed and stole love

His face faded in the window

As rain fell from above

**

The cat knocked a vase off our farm-house dining table

When he saw the dark reflection of the passing ghost

Pressure manipulating is forgotten now

I had to catch it

Oh… so close

Will common sense reach him

For safety specific?

We need it for the future

At this time the most

*

Tracking mud from the floor of her doghouse,

Lucy has free reign

Sweet canine has more luxury than she needs

almost

Not much for etiquette

It’s eats at me now

And so I blurt out

What I think we need most

Will we keep good distance

Reveal faith incarnate

Or charge to the future

Getting too close?

**

Then she starts barking and rattles my skull

Neighbours hear it too

It’s inescapable

She follows me inside with no clear boundaries

I go upstairs & hide

“Quiet! Calm down please”

Then we are fine

On the couch just her and me

A quick belly rub

Now she’s nice as can be

*

Sifting thru pages

and trying to share words

Lucy asleep, I hear pure tones, divine birds

Charming racket of a kind crow

for fall leaves we grieve

Cool mood in the room as I

Write and believe

I lay back for a second in my rotating chair

Of an unearthly presence I become aware!

*

Television crackles

My hands on the screen

A voice speaks clearly

Blasts out of a dream

It was the news host talking

directly to me,

“You must help save the world

It’s hurting… come see!”

I see people suffering across the earth

It drags me down

like I’ve lost social worth

*

“You must fight the battle for everyone you know

Save the entire planet and everywhere you go

Don’t sweat the small stuff but carry the whole world

Brace us against the sun and the creeping moon curled!”

I said “I’m trying, I’m doing the best I can!”

“Not good enough

Try harder again”

*

Like the sound of a coin into

wishing-well water

The TV turned off

Fizzled and felt a bit hotter

Blinding light burst

from the face of my phone

Barely pressed the screen

And souls entered my home

My inbox explodes while

Text messages chime

Notifications pile up

I have nothing but time

*

Late bills

Spam and useless subscriptions

Tried to close them fast amid too many encryptions

A sight became present that bolstered my spirit

A message from someone that had read my lyric

Their image appeared on my screen so ephemeral

A fleeting glimpse, like it had it been here at all

**

Clucking in back of our chicken-house bird-palace

What I thought was an odd project are pets we love the most

Waking-up schedule

Much better now

Get up

Let hens out

Fresh eggs for our toast

Will Earth’s cruelty stop?

“Yes” should be implicit

With effort for the future

Kindness that we chose

*

Reeking from heaven to hell

the outhouse of this winter

Seems what we ate is attacking us

as time has quickly froze

Questions of appetite

Don’t feel quite right now

Please unpause

It’s what matters most

Will there be paper or light?

Any privacy?

For others in the future:

Consideration I propose

**

Then faith in my SUV

As I buckled for the store

Elastic scratched my skull

Safety is what it’s for

Driving down the road

Guy clearly saw the sign

Blew right thru it

And crossed the double line

We must be more safe

Follow worthy rules

Then when we look back

We won’t look like true fools

*

I was also rushing

When I was much younger

Time has shifted gears

To a responsible kind of hunger

We all need supplies and food

A reason to go out

No need to be rude

Kindness is all about

We can still be fast

But keep good sense to stay safe

Like wear a brand-new mask

(One that doesn’t chafe)

*

Closing my car door

Walked to get a buggy

For this time of year

It was feeling rather muggy

Clouds seemed to issue

From a parking-lot sewer-grate

Black shadows formed in front of me

And wouldn’t dissipate

In the next moment

Thought I was losing my mind

Soon to be sure of it

A specter was defined

*

The future’s public eyes

Red and burning through me

History of life

Like no one ever knew me

With hands like ravens’ claws

the phantom grabbed my wrist

Dragged me in to the cold wet sky

without my shopping list

Over streets and homes

Across river and valley

Fiend then dropped me off alone

in a cold and dirty alley

*

A puddle on the pavement

Showed my own reflection

Cars splashed by

I jumped back for my protection

The ghoul looked at me

I saw families torn apart

A young man looking old

pushing an empty shopping cart

Then a ghost blue van

hauled us off

no indecision

Threw us in the door

of a last-ditch forensic prison

*

There were hard cold floors, padded walls with windows barred

Dragged us to the morgue, down grim dark halls, my brain was scarred

Sobbing all our tears filled the reaper’s cup

The shroud of years established

hides parts of institutes corrupt

Fire in the shadow’s eyes

And blade of it’s sickle

Dying to get thru

Our fate is always fickle

**

Shackled for days in a big house of the future

Strap on a straight jacket in the fashion that I chose

Tying down pacifists, no one looks to me now

If there’s no cause for fear

Lets just bulldoze

Will present chains come off

If we’re complicit

Or will we weigh down our future

With a heavy dose?

*

Crackling chambers of a charnel house we all face

Where we find a skeleton we won’t always find a ghost

Our souls are independent

We may live forever

I’d like to prove it

Preparing for the post

Will we find complete calm

and consciousness infinite

Harness power for the future?

Excitement, no one knows

**

Smoke rises fast

Proud machines rumble

On shoppers’ gas fumes

Back to my vehicle I tumble

Turn the key to just get home

I have groceries for days

Made sure to put my heavy change

into the globe in the heavy haze

Vapours disappear into cold grey sky

And no Xmas shopping junk

if I don’t need to buy

*

As I’m driving home

with the stereo blasting

I thought of my daydreams

And impact everlasting

Then I heard a song

I’d known all along

And now that I was on

I wouldn’t get the lyrics wrong

It now made sense to me

Really set me free

I thought of friends and family

And visions that should be

*

Rolled into the driveway

Ready for the afternoon

In my truck I rocked out hard

to the rest of the classic tune

When my song was over

Spirit still in my head

Concentrate to remember

Exactly what was said

Walk up gravel and grass

Thought of phantom smoke

Anxious to tell my folks

“Really! It was no joke!”

*

All along the house

Garden still looks pleasant

Yes, it is off-season

Glad that it is present

Folks are not here yet

Only close family coming by

Exciting for our kids

Despite foreboding sky

Optimism can save the day

Turn grey skies to green plants

Helps people play nice

And still make sure to clean hands

*

Now we join around the table

Love has made it when it’s able

We are gathered here together

Mostly on screen or phone

But with the weather

Let’s be clever

And this way

We will never be alone

Those closest to us sitting down

Food we fixed is coming round

With our stories and our grace

We love our dreams and love this place

*

The future’s uncertain and

We influence the outcome

We share our insight for good health

No one should be without some

Follow guidelines and make our own plans

Use common sense and take our own stands

The things we wish for

will work out for the best

If we love ourselves

AND LOVE all the rest

**

Sparkling in the sun

The greenhouse of our fair world

Plants will face reckoning

In this place we should love most

Nurturing living things

Must be priority now

We need to check in

On this precious rose

We must know a champion

Of beautiful humanity

Let us find a future

Where love for life shows

****

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Cosmic Conveyor

Forget all

We can

& Learn from the moment

What does it tell?

So much

We carry

to this time

Guided by memory, perception

& Focus

We’re pushed by the past

Thrust into the present

& pulled by the future

One point in a cosmic conveyor

Still fresh

As we decide to savour the moment

Now

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Looking Up, Holding On

We all have to look up to someone

something

Most of us look to many

Tall trees stand for years and years

In these months some shed their

leaves

cones

and into the ground

piles of yellow and orange

Forgotten fruits of summer

become brown

black

and sink

Into the day

water glistening

*

We all have to look up to someone

To dream

At times there isn’t any

Society leaves us in tears and tears

In these times some live their

Fears

Unknowns

and into the night

Thrown to darkness and cold

Fall in the fight and suffer

Become numb

Die

Or reach

Ways to be saved by

Someone listening

*

We all look up to someone

something

Most of us look to many

Tall trees stand for years and years

Winter months choose their

branches

bend, break

and into the snow

Piles of dull blue and white

Nesting birds will recover

Creatures bright

Rise

And Fly

Up towards the sun

To treetops returning

*

Holding on

Life gives us a chance

Life appears different

Birds rise

colours dance

*

In days and seasons

Green leaves turn gold and spin

Bird’s eye view changes

New seasons begin

*

Holding on

Life is our chance

Life appears different

A bird turns

on a branch

Find ways and reasons

To understand

*

Just take a glance

Nature’s romance

Leaves fall down

Colours enhance

All year long

some stay green

Beauty remains

in all that is seen

*

Life is our chance

Life appears different

Dreams dance on a branch

Nature’s voice is insistent

Time stays bright above all

Forever birds call

*

My true love reflects the trees in her eyes

As long as I’ve known

These dazzling skies

Chitter chatter flocks around me

I Look in those eyes

Peace and love talk to me

As I take to the skies

*

We all look up to someone

something

Most of us look to many

Tall trees stand for years and years

🌲

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Share Hope (All together)

Hope

Sunlight

Your voice and words

Splash down and

soothe

I would not be a cloud

hiding

Sun when we want blue

I do like to keep in warmth

Share water for plants to grow

Surprise sprouts

Even for me

Creeps to and from my sky

Impressions become blurred

I want to be perfectly clear

*

Hope

Comfort

Just food and drink

Shelter and

clothes

I would not be too proud

hiding

Love when we have woes

I do like to promote warmth

Share energy with all I do

Surprise strengths

Even for me

Discovering resources

Impressions of a word

I want to be perfectly clear

*

I aim to help

Improve today

Take it any way you like

I hope you have it your way

I think we are

All together

*

Share hope

Find hope

Share hope again

*

I know

We are

All together

*

What’s your plan?

Tell me now

Let’s get on a roll

This is how

Say it loud

We all have one goal

*

Hope

Find hope

Share hope again

*

Hope

Starlight

Your voice and words

Splash down and

soothe

I would not be a cloud

hiding

Light when we want the moon

I do like to keep warmth

Share space for people to grow

Surprise shines

Even for me

Creeps to and from my sky

Impressions of the dark

I want to be perfectly clear

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Our Own Skull

Slow turning wheels of the distanced brain

Psychosis deeper in those that are sane

Footsteps… Bones are creaking… as the floor board warps

Another dimension I’m going to, when my body’s a corpse

Glowing apparition of a spiritual superstar

Ongoing metamorphosis has gotten us this far

*

Words drip off his tongue like blood from a vial

Says what’s channeled through him, he just wants you to smile

Strangest thing, they once thought he did

Was misunderstood from when he was a kid

If he spoke to the dead or worshipped the grave

They beat him down until he’d rant and rave

*

Earth splits open and spirits bellow out

Zombies from all directions when we have self-doubt

Faces in the rain like mirrors in the dark

The monster he’s become like fire from a spark

Sinister views of stigma

Trouble, a friend of mine

If I didn’t know any better, I’d say he’s Frankenstein

*

Beauty and kind energy, wilder than most

Rise and shine like the sun, one powerful ghost

From torture chambers of the deepest dungeon

A waft of salvation, for a room so pungent

Spirits climb higher to eternal life

Bonds of suffering cut free by the daily bread knife

Thread of spiders’ cut 🕷

*

Sorry, I guess ‘Normal’ has left the building

More than a ghost, a door-mouse, back with a guilt-thing

A full-on rat has crept into my head

Like the one my black cat dropped off in my bed

No tricks just treats from this creepy twit-stalker

I hope you can laugh at our zombie-walk shocker!

*

Witch’s verse was a curse, wove my crush on tombs

Mysterious life kills me fast, like poison mushrooms

Some strains take away sunshine, take me to body bags

To be resurrected, by toothless bearded hags

Then when I died in 1992, all I could say was “I love all of you”

And I still do

*

If we could put all our inner fire in one big pot and stir

I think we’d find an answer and maybe a cure

We all want to be ok inside our own skull

To me we need to reach out in ways that don’t ever get dull

Share music and poetry and honest words spoken

Both daring and caring and let no hearts be broken

*

From an open crypt, I hear the dead’s calm call

Visions and voices come from a handheld crystal ball

Vampire sighs when we see our reflection

October frost on our breath and mystic protection

Werewolves watch over us and creepy clowns cower

Halloween Eve, we break through unholy power

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True to the Seasons

Seasons change

Shiny familiar faces

Fall away

Not gone

But instead feeding the future

Breaking down and touching the roots of our

Winter days

Ice of

Our feelings

Loss of

Yesterday’s frost

Makes way for calm sleep

To dream in peace

(save the rustling wind)

and

Wake up rejuvenated again

*

Feelings true

Kind and resilient faces

Here anew

Not lost

But rather healing for the future

Breaking thru and touching roots of our

Soul and fate

Haste in

Our feelings

Tests of

The day’s pressure

Gives way to calm deeds

To dream of peace

Get caught up in the wind

and

Soar until we are strong again

*

There is no match for our feelings

Words fail

Empathy strives to catch up

Seasons forever change

Yet understanding grows

Connection

Keeping pace

Compassion

The utmost joy shared together

Or worst suffering

We fight to get hold of

and

Kindly remove hurt like roots of an invasive weed

and shake the dirt free

*

Petals drop

Vibrant pleasant faces

Wash away

At no cost

Freely drifting to the future

Breaking clean yet known in roots of

Timeless days

Easing

Feelings of

Loss of

The inevitable frost

Makes way for memories

To dream for peace

Embrace the refreshing wind

And

Stay true to the changing seasons

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Shared Vision

Rise

through the haze

was dreaming

Cloudy days

I can clearly see

the page that needs reading

Search the lines

Find designs

Calm consideration for life is inspiring

*

Learn

Forever

in a moment

Strong endeavor

Words are potent

Think it clever

To share visions with others and be kind

*

Sail

through the blue

best breathing

Deep truth

I can clearly see

a line of news that needs reading

Search the skies

Find what lies

Calm consideration of life is defining

*

Learn

Forever

in a moment

Long endeavor

Minutes potent

Think to never

Share sad visions with others in absent mind

*

Dive

through the night

sun leaving

Out of sight

I can clearly see

Rights no one has been reading

Search my eyes

Find no surprise

Calm consideration of life is not hiding

*

Learn

Forever

in a moment

Wrong endeavor

Cynics potent

Let’s share visions with others only for peace of mind

*

Visions seen in fragments

until imagination and the world we know

Connect

*

With the help of language and

Good communication and the world we know

Connects

*

Seeing thru our own eyes

Learn

Forever

in a moment

One endeavor

Love is potent

When we share vision with others to be kind

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A World in Waiting

For a world in waiting

She holds the spotlight

Putting new night in a calm trance

she casts her spell of kindness

*

Lifts a key and turns

As her angel rises

Timid waking hearts of a hopeful horizon beat furiously, fondly

*

A reflected vision

Sun and Moon forever fuel our dreams

and Love

*

For a world in waiting

She can be elusive

Hiding sometimes behind clouds and trees

Her gravity still grips us

*

A key jangles

In deep material

Bold, un-breaking hearts of the new day march to a beat of their own

*

Yet still influenced

By Sun and Moon who forever fuel our dreams

And Love

*

As we perch in our morning places

We know the need for nourishment and exercise

We venture out

Let the day welcome us!

And have our backs

*

Flutter & frolic with no fear

This is a branch we can share

When we follow the same sun

And are sheltered by the same moon

And We focus on Peace, Love & fairness

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Isn’t that Enough?

Nothing I can do

Nothing I can say

Can take the pain away

Today

No matter how I try

Even if I cry

Some things I just can’t change

*

Every day we work to make a dollar

Still we don’t make enough

I work hard in every way

So I can fight

for what’s right

Isn’t that enough?

In this life

Today

*

Where’s the peace we all want?

Wrapped up in individual needs?

So much conflict for what we insist is ours

Can’t we get the things we deserve without greed?

Are they locked up in our head?

So much we think we want and need

Why can’t we settle for what’s best?

Life for us

because we’re together

indeed

*

Let’s see that

Let’s talk it out

Let’s change the world

*

Only what I do

Only what I say

Can take the pain away today

It matters how I try

How I make the plans fly

Some things we may have to change

Why should we have to make a dollar?

So long as we work well together

I work hard in every way

And I fight

For what’s right

Isn’t that enough?

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Fair Play Sky

If baying at the moon

Or playing our best tune

Good spoken word all day

And absolutely every morning

I will embrace the sky

Though people wonder why

And the sky holds me tight

Without scorning

I have done the same

Life surely is a game

Sportsmanship and Ethics are the core thing

Fair play

*

If praying for peace soon

Or playing our best tune

For tokens good all day

And absolutely every weekend

I will embrace the sky

A vision for the eye

And the sky holds me tight

As I am peeking

You have done the same

Life is more than just a game

Peace, good will and comfort we are seeking

*

Fair’s fair

I don’t care

What the cheating kind say

How can you draw blood from a stone

Or make a broke person pay?

Fair’s fair

Be aware

With your riches, think it’s funny

How can you leave millions alone

When you’ve got all that money?

Face the facts top hats

Fair play is the name of the game

*

I’m trying to avoid ruin

By playing my best tune

No joking, that’s my way

absolutely makes my life deep and

I will embrace the sky

Until the day I die

And the sky holds me tight

Without speaking

You have done the same

Taken a break from the game

But kindness and what’s right are never sleeping

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Everybody Breathe

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*As a note, I’ve been skydiving eleven times and engaged in some amazing cliff jumping, but would never recommend these activities for others. They were thrilling for me and skydiving is so peaceful when your chute is open; The whole world as far as the eye can see becomes vivid and vibrant, at your touch, yet far below. I survived in one piece. This is the song:

I’m falling from the skies

Won’t be criticized

Try to find the truth

And for days we’re hypnotized

*

Everything is what it seems to be

We are what we want and need

Moments are deeper than the sea

*

Underneath we face the day

On the surface be okay

Everybody breathe so peacefully

Everybody breathe

*

I’m hanging from a thread

Not better off dead

Think about tomorrow

And ways to get ahead

*

Be calm, the future’s every day

Let the moment be ok

Everybody breathe as is we’re free :||

*

Everything is what it seems to be

We are what we want and need

Moments are deeper when we’re free

Breathe

*

I’m diving off a cliff

Like a wicked guitar riff

Fighting for our life

And what we can do for it

*

Our life is only here today

Have fun, work hard to be okay

Everybody breathe

Just breathe.

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Chalk Moon

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Today has almost passed

Like chalk washed off the sidewalk

With one piece remaining

One last hop

branch to branch

Or hovering in front of evening’s flower

Tiny wings seem to beat furiously

Yet float with the greatest of ease

Until shining brighter

In contrast to the night

Moon falls madly

into the grasp of

Pitch black night

No one believes this life

Bright colour

Truth folded up

as if it will never see the light of day

Stars seem to glow endlessly

The sun’s power never doubted

Cheesy spirit

Second-hand beauty

Seen as a passing phase

Until I shine

Summer sun simmers

Days start fresh

Like cotton candy clouds

Or blossoming baby’s breath

Ferris wheel views and

Roller coaster thrills

Safe as life can be today

Until sunset spills

Nothing can mask beauty

Coming from inside

A cure for sure

Remember love is pure

Like a carnival ride

Night holds dark mystery

Reflection of today

Void-of-vision history

Invites us all to pay

Turning to tomorrow

Moon and stars are kind

From time blackness is borrowed

Draws dreams and lends our mind

Calm focus on shared space

Work for love of all

Wake up to a peaceful place

Optimism through nightfall

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Sonnet for Hot Heads

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These hot summer days can be great to laze

On the grey back deck with the world in check

No one is winning and no one a wreck

My soul hopes and prays that our true love stays

We search for new ways to relax and gaze

At a cloudy speck in blue skies we trek

We can be grinning, as peace saves our neck

My love of life plays as I search for ways

To keep having fun: HELP THOSE THAT SUFFER

To fight for justice for all of the world

To find mindfulness and share with others

We chase down the sun as cool mood’s buffer

Lighten the losses and heat that is hurled

To end spitefulness this hot head smothers

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Metal Health

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Soft are the petals, bright are the stars

‪Fast is the wind, cooler than cars

‪Earth spins on axles, real and imagined

‪Stars fade in morning, ideas will hatch then

‪Love is like metal, glows like pure gold

‪Chrome shines in sun, glistening yet cold

Hot are the kettles of stories untold

 

Silk of butterfly’s bright neon light

Drifting like dew onto leaves after night

Swift is the sun and hotter than Hell

Fierce as a storm, our stories to tell

Peace is like blue sky or safe in the fold

In town or country, both young and old

Fresh is emotion, Hidden or Bold

 

Subtle the sunset that seals off the day

Visions of dark night well underway

Slow in the moment our anxious thoughts crawl

Strong as an angel, love arrives before all

Into forever, years grasp and hold

Optimism meets light, faith can’t be sold

Respect for our world and life rock & rolled

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The Shower Song ~ Intermittent Intimate (Ritualization)

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I recorded this about fourteen years ago (Around 2006).  People like it.  A lot.  I have recorded no other full songs and was only jamming a few times per year back then.  With the rest of my life surging forward, I have had less time to play although I do keep in touch with my close friend here and will one day before too long jam again, and make something good happen.

Music 🙂

I sang off the top of my head, with very few memorized lyrics.  Above is the recording, with my friends also improvising on electric guitar and drums.  Lee Matuga, on guitar, also does some of the paintings that I post pics of, with my work on this site.  Adam is on drums. The transcribed lyrics are below.

This is one of my only poems with course language.  Years later I shared the recording with brand new colleagues.  Mistake.  What may be the bigger mistake is the reaction and interpretation that they have had.

I think everyone gets the environmental pollution theme.  People may not have understood the psychological content as well.

I’m sorry if some parts of the lyrics are disturbing to you.  It is heavy metal poetry and drama. Not all real life.  It is not depraved.  If that is how people have interpreted it, then shame on them.  I think it is the opposite. Get your mind out of the gutter!

It is about understanding existence within the world we live and in our relationships. How do we succeed?

“Constant improvement of our soul,

Through passing and failing and changing.”

~

**12:59 Shower**

For the last challenge,

You will have an ice cold shower…

An ice cold shower?

An ice cold shower…

Freezing cold winter rain causing subliminal

pain,

Burning hot summer heat, wipes you off your frickin feet,

hey!

*

Translucent white of the ashes,

Flying from

the volcano,

In the heart of the city,

*

Industrial pipes billowing smoke clouds that drip on you every day,

And they burn through your skin,

And your place in the city is

just too close to the city,

*

Watch the rain as it comes down fast,

You can see the faces of the under-known,

*

Watch the clouds as they pass on by,

You can see the faces of the other silent

watchers,

On the other silent planet,

With the other silent,

*

Traces of time on the edge of your moment,

Makes you feel like you shouldn’t have ever known it,

I can’t believe what has happened…

To the place where I used to be in the most,

*

Desperate change to the need in your reach,

The conversation having you, is having you beat,

You can’t understand why they’re looking down on you like that,

*

Looking up into the sky,

It makes me wonder why,

I’m thinking all the time that there is going to be some saving grace,

*

And you just let the reflections of God,

given to you,

And let you receive,

Unto this

beneficial [bona fide] bullshit,

*

Pinned down by the mean man,

The one that’s up above,

Staring at you like you are just a little piece of work,

That needs some seasoning,

You frickin little jerk,

And then you see the idle eyes,

In the brain

and in the skies,

You know that he is really,

Somewhere,

Connected to you,

Through some passage,

Through some thought,

Through some subconscious pathway,

Fucking bullshit.

Hey,

Hey,

Hey!

Hey!

How the hell do you expect to receive it by standing on your

porch?

Your porch is underground,

*

Oh taste the fresh,

Or just confess good,

I want to see Frankenstein, growing in this,

But that I can tell ya,

That I can tell

what I say:

He’s chasing the other dream,

*

He has thoughts and he has feelings,

She is right and she’s believing:

No one can be cooking more than me,

*

Oh we have iodized, idealized precision,

And we just know that one thing to do is every day,

Make your decision,

*

Pitter patter, let’s get at ‘er,

Pitter patter, it’s pouring outside,

That’s not pitter patter –

That’s rapid torrential thumping,

*

It’s raining outside, but it’s kind of intermittent,

Yesterday’s massive storm left me drenched,

It seems the calm can be refreshed,

and we can leave the daily mess,

But you were twisting your words like a wrench,

*

Intermittent intimate,

Enter, enter, intermittent intimate,

Intermittent intimate,

What I say,

*

Well it’s nice out outside,

And it’s finally subsided,

And the calm can be refreshed every day,

Is seems the skin that is burning

Is from your yearning,

And we make it through just this way,

*

Intermittent intimate,

Intermittent intimate,

I’m getting, Intermittent,

I meant, I meant

I meant

It all baby,

*

Constant refusal is kind of amusing,

I can’t stand it any fucking more,

You want to get down with the sound of your feeling,

But there’s nowhere to go when you’re sore,

Chase the ace…

Oh, she’s sweet…

*

Take,

the last,

Breath of the day,

12:59

How ya feeling?

Fine,

That’s alright – How are you?

We all doing alright just to know that you’re good,

And you know what to do,

Save your last,

*

Charm yourself,

Charm the rest,

Pass the test,

Take it again if you don’t make it,

Constant improvement of your soul,

Through

passing,

and failing,

and changing,

*

Ritualization

Ohhh!

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Love and Space (Distancing)

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Love and Space

Goals match how we live

Achieve if we strive

No matter what we give up

 

Let us face

Souls, standing apart

Separated always

but still close at heart:

We are distanced in space

 

It is

Who we know

It is

Where we go

Love from afar

It is

Who we are

 

Be safe like a Star

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Bright Depth

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Depth to the depth

When shallow I’m hollow

A breath in and out

Time moves and I follow

Then in the West

We call out Apollo

His best must be left

In grooves that we follow

 

Daybreak has all of the plans

At night dreams start all over again

Lighting the way

Everyday

A test to the test

In fire I wallow

 

A splash of wisdom

A dash of defiance

I aim to be close to

Established compliance

I can’t complain

but we do need change

To challenge the system

And set a new stage

 

So today

I buck history

Mine and the world’s

Try to redesign meaning

Of words we’ve unfurled

Bright ideas, dark days

My optimism is pure

Work and believing

 

Confess to the rest

When shallow we’re hollow

A breath in and out

Success proves how to follow

Guessed to be best

The world shouts a loud call-out

The rest must be blessed

In grooves that we follow

 

Daybreak has all of the plans

At night dreams start all over again

At the height of day

I work and pray

Success at the test

In fire I wallow

 

Smoke is rising

Flames are twisting

I waver like a leaf in the heated breeze

No surprise

I’m resisting

To get past pain and find progress beneath

 

Our future is uncertain

and alternates positions

Staying strong in only one:

A stem of

Cool and calm visions

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Intro to ‘Balancing Mood for Greater Productivity’

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I have decided to start a writing project.  This could turn out to be something for blogs, an all-out book, or something towards a university degree…  I will have to see where it takes me.

This introduction took me a few hours to write, but a lifetime to prepare for.

Update: I have written Chapter 1 and moved on to the Chapter 2, but I have decided to hold off publishing until I have more of the book assembled!  Still, the introduction here is a quick glance at my history and philosophy, that you should find interesting enough?!!

Balancing Mood for Greater Productivity:  Optimism and Empathy – Strategies to Manage Life

By Mike Scott

Introduction

Intense productivity and good health derive from the ability to balance mood.  I know this from experience.  I want to share with you what I have learned about balancing high levels of energy such as mania and hypomania.  I have had success by turning these potentially troublesome moods into a consistent calm attitude from which I have been able to generate productivity in the workplace and at home.

You might ask, “In what way has this guy been productive?”.  It is about perspective.  I have fought through one heck of a lot.  Perseverance became a major factor that enabled me to obtain a Bachelor of Arts degree with a psychology major while I fought off manic and mixed episodes in bipolar disorder for the duration of my undergraduate studies.  I was hospitalized several times.

I have not had an episode since 2001.  Within a decade of taking my degree, I completed my electrical apprenticeship.  I worked for close to fifteen years as an electrician.  I spent four years as an electrical foreman in data-wiring and had multiple, hard-earned successes in large construction projects.  Again: determination got me through.  I sustained injuries and worked through pain for many years.  Due to the physical dangers for me in the field and the industry demands that threatened to compromise my goals in mental health, I left the electrical trade.  Years before this, I had started working on my goals in psychology again.

In 2011 I submitted a paper on goal-pursuit.  I was told by a prominent researcher from a top U.S. university that a PhD should be within my reach.  By the time I left electrical work in 2015, I had already started casual hours in support work for mental health.  I have had success supporting adults, youth and children with special needs for over five years now.  This can be gritty work, with emotional and physical challenges.  I also coached over a dozen sports teams and won nine championships as a coach in minor league baseball.  Yes, this is just kid’s stuff to some, but with new responsibilities in the new millennium and learning from my problems in the 1990’s, I have found better ways to balance mood… and generate productivity.

I suffered a lot from episodes over those years, and I learned how to stop escalating into mania.  I did this by managing physical health, taking medication for mental health, and using all sorts of cognitive strategies.  New insights allowed me to manage triggers that otherwise would have set me off.  They are no longer triggers.  My newly balanced and calm demeanor has helped turn many difficult situations into productive ones.  This has been noted by family, friends, co-workers, clients and supervisors.  My energy is about patience and reason.  At the same time, I have electricity.  I quietly buzz with productivity, and systematically accomplish goals.  I find grounding by getting tasks done and discovering new perspectives to balance mood while appealing to common sense, spirituality and humor.  The certain edge that I have, landed me in research with the University of British Columbia.  In 2016 I was published as a co-author for a study on “Effective self-management strategies in bipolar disorder”.  The team’s research has been respected by the government of Canada with an award of distinction.

Meanwhile, I have worked through challenges in my home-life successfully.  I went through a divorce.  It was a mutual split.  I remain close with my kids and they have adjusted.  I do everything I can for them.  I gave my ex-wife the home, to settle quickly, and to provide for them.   Almost a year after moving out, I became romantically involved with my new partner, and in 2014 I moved in with her, her two kids, and her father.  I work extremely hard for all parts of my family, and we are doing considerably well.  The four kids get along and are making progress in school and in new occupations.  My partner and I are very happy together.  I work steady, take care of the kids, handle most of the household chores and help my wife’s dad run what is basically a small hobby farm.  All these experiences are ways that I have been productive, while avoiding mania or depression.

Now, if you are still interested, I hope to tell you how I have most effectively balanced mood, to create productivity over my lifetime:  Being confident and kind helps me find more productivity!  Optimism.  Empathy.  It’s simple.  It seems like a no-brainer!  Why can’t people get this?  For me, being optimistic increases productivity because it builds a bias towards confidence to achieve.  Then, more often: we achieve.  Being considerate increases productivity because if we help others, others are more likely to help us!  It seems straight-forward.  There is something else about caring, when the world gets involved… and the universe.  There are so many surprises and challenges that every situation is different.  Optimism and empathy have enabled me to have many successes in life.

There is one complex discussion that plays a big role in this book and it may be hard for some people to appreciate initially.  I will be using many of my own experiences to describe the psychology which I have based my operations-plan on for most of my entire life.  I will explain and support why I feel that some mechanism occurs, and events can unfold, perhaps like karma or synchronicity and in some ways, it can work for us.  By having respect for life, such as in procedures in goal-pursuit and in creating routine or ceremony:  Life rewards us with serendipity – as if hard work and good intentions have dynamics that are stronger when we recognize and respect value beyond the surface.  I find this connection to be very reassuring.  It is about visualization of outcomes to some extent.  It keeps me level in difficult situations.  I will point to a direct correlation between certain moods and productivity in this type of transcendental work, and how this is enhanced by confidence, care and respect.  This is where I would like to explain balance from, such that you might attain the same sense of stability too, even amidst possible turmoil.

We balance our life towards goals.  Social feedback and the environment can aid or blockade goal-pursuit.  Our own belief-system and how we react, is where all the dynamics start.  On top of the most essential building blocks of physical and mental health, respect for life may determine mood more than anything else.  We can build moods of productivity with optimism and empathy.  I will explain how.

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Together Standing Free

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This picture shows hundreds of birds standing on the shoreline. They sit like little spheres.

 

Fighting the news

Trying to choose

what to say

Not profanity or vanity

Seems like articulated complacency

by a person just speaking to fill time

An act in adjacency

A plan I see:

Humanity

Mood for mood

Science or art

In between

Far apart

Together striving hard

to be standing free

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Centered

 

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Picture taken by my Dad

As I lay down after what seems like a thousand years,
I’ve accomplished what I’ve needed,
Escalated a million times,
And come down heavy here,

I’m feeling no pain since I’ve been back,
Killing time until we’re dead,
It’s an emotional lecture
I’d speculate
How to maintain a pain-free head,

The way is clear,
Find the path,
My head is clear,
What a blast,

I’m feeling like a train on the tracks: fast,
Finding guidance from you instead,
It’s not just conjecture
I anticipate
How we always get ahead,

As I charge up and energize, I’ve no more valid fears,
I realize all we carry,
How we’ve lightened spilling-skies,
And stayed so steady here

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Monster Marigolds

This poem is from 2014.  It’s out of the archives. I finally have pictures to match…

*****

I’m hoping and I’m confident for the

Future, hanging by a thread and still safe

My dream was on hold and subconsciously…

I left it like marigolds to be saved

For the spring, to dry in a newspaper,

Headlines reading: Drastic change is needed

And a waft of earth mixed in with pungent perfume,

A sharp joy familiar from another life,

Seeds in time need space – In some sense starving,

For rebirth, like a continental drift

Driving plates of earth into new mountains,

Necessity for action altering

The landscape, dangerously alone with

Unavoidably complicated results,

It is not that I’m crazy or even,

Secretly in love – it is that my world

Would flip with some unknown consequences,

Yes, for all moments satisfying – Even

After a long while and at once broken

Off, pieces of another life hang like

Uncertain segments of sidewalk dripping,

Off the edge of an earthquake, Could it be

Consumed – an edible shoelace of cheese

On the pizza of life,

Real sustenance,

Or would it be wasted and shrivel up,

Prepared to spend time covered in food wrap,

Forgotten in the far back of the fridge,

To spend its eternity alone once

Again, without the earth and teaming road,

That once made it whole?

Delivered with maturity, its value

Could really be reclaimed,

New roads paved, an emptiness

Filled, satiety of scenario

And the landscape once again level, Night

To follow, but awakening to a

Content system: Business- thoroughfare

At once resuming – It is a vision,

Or is it just simply the winds of change,

Enveloping a tired world, swiftly

To be swept right up, forcing the divine

Action of a society? – Invoke:

Swarming feats of brilliant engineering,

And eventual, and still quick triumphs

For the ones previously thought to be

Left behind,

Strong…

Now: Does she inspire me?

Truly and without isolation – One

Possibility with the infinite

Similarities to every other

Love, real and imprinted in time, Surreal,

Once drawn into my creative current,

Unusually focussed, yet correct

And productive state of mind, for which I

Would change a world in hopes that I could find

The best way possible to carry on

And still perpetuate our existence,

Orange flowers blooming with centuries of

Genetic change curing previous flaws

In the stems of our garden, a hybrid

Strain, and pick up where we left off today

 

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The Tension Mounts

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I got raised by the sunshine,

What I complain about

ain’t the same to me anymore,

 

Got cloudy days that must suffice,

What they say is right

might not be the same to me tomorrow,

 

Live today and love the moment

Soak in sunshine as it cures you,

 

Live today and love the moment

Soak in sunshine as it guides you,

 

Then hit the heights as the tension mounts,

The desert days are high and dry,

It may be cold at night

but hot as hell for me tomorrow,

 

The winter rains are cold as ice,

But the fire inside

Will be the same to me forever more,

 

Live today and sense the changes

Feel the pain and then stop the pounding,

 

Live today and sense the changes

Taste the rain as it soaks and bounces,

 

Live today and work for progress

Then hit the heights as the tension mounts,

Make the most of life:

Always

The sun rises,

 

One time to burn

One time to heal

One time to learn

One time to feel

Make your move when it counts

Embrace the moment while the tension mounts

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Supernova Smile

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Supernova Smile

With a smile be friendly

As if it’s the end

The mean is living

Out of breath

As long as you go

All you will know

Is the day to day

Work and pay

For all of it,

How much do I owe?

If it’s all for show

How far do I go?

Just keep up to the pace

A way to get ahead in this place

*

With a smile, be friendly

As if it’s the ending

Of fighting to live ~ Take a breath

As sure as you go

All you will know

Is the day to day

Good times and low

It’s where we go,

It should be goodwill that binds us

draws us together

A certain not hurting energy

*

Walk the mile, be friendly

As if it’s the ending

Of fighting to live ~ Take a breath

As sure as you go

All you will know

Is the only way

Our life is today

Just keep up to the pace

A way to get ahead in this place

*

A firm grin or blinding show

The gentle touch or blasting trail

Each one of us a star

A distant glimmer is fierce all the while

Live and die

Supernova smile, in a breath to take us far

A penetrating gaze

A defying glaze of eyes

Isolating days of no warning or surprise

Smile.

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Blossoms Buried

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Boldly see blossoms
fruitful truth
become obscured and
deformed by lies
Weeds set free by powerful breath
wishing
scattering
overtaking
Certain crops can’t survive
Ignorant
Force confuses enough
Blindly burying truth so deep
New growth won’t rise
unexpectedly helpful truth
Buried

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Pathways

 

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Pathways

 

Ever-present desire to succeed and challenge,

Fragments of time hang on the nervous door hinge,

In the skies there is a fiery orange,

In the brain, in the mood, in the path,

*

Consequential change of the integrated feeling,

Brings a far-fetched mood that sends me reeling,

Enduring trance set by the cosmic dealing,

Just from proof, of a move, in the path,

*

In the rising travel to find what dreams yield,

Synchronicity is uplifting, (a plain thing)

In the vast expanse of this energy field,

The ground is ever-shifting:

*

Shifting shapes in the rain, rising up to the sky,

Misty memory reflects all that you think,

And I think if I fall I will surely:

Dive deeper, into this massive mental landscape,

.*

Border dreams, real as rock,

Where’s the path?

Gridlock,

Shaking heads, shaking thoughts,

Can’t get through gridlock

Gridlock

*

Saturate the idol with a figment of power,

And you will find a fate-changing flower,

Iridescent lights in the sixty-watt shower,

Creating strength, in the groove, in the path,

*

Confirmation of an intriguing notion,

Visions that lure an unreal emotion,

Diligent work spent on devotion,

Such a waste, fail to cross, to a new path,

*

In minute thoughts we process and explore,

Infinite possibilities passing,

With immaculate balance I reach for the door,

But still I find myself grasping:

*

Grasping leaves as I run, as fast as I am free,

Factual forest, reflects all that you think,

And I think if I fall I will surely

Dive deeper, into these firmly grounded beliefs,

*

Waking dreams, real as rock

There’s the path:

Gridlock,

Shaking hands – shake in shock,

Must get through:

Gridlock,

Peace of mind from lucid talk,

Flowing through

Gridlock

Gridlock.

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Confidence

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Delve deep into the sunrise,

Not far from now the night dies,

Suppressing nothing the mind finds,

And yesterday falls behind,

Stretching out into memories,

Archived for the next day I need,

Or ever more:

The sunshine’s freed,

Delicious day,

Desirable,

Divine,

And only for a few moments it might unwind,

The seconds when I’m uncertain in time,

An anxious moment, and I’m dead in my tracks,

 

Without you, I’m dead in my tracks,

 

Diving down into a frown, I fall all the way down,

Without your light, or dreams at night,

I can’t get around and I’m dead in my tracks,

 

Confidence returns, when I face the facts,

Anxiety fades, and good health comes back,

Peace of mind comes from love of life,

I learn to relax,

 

I breathe through the mountains and their forest trees,

I peer through the skies and feel through the seas,

I clamber through the attic built up in my mind,

And run electrical wire through visions that I find,

Coursing through my brains are my future plans,

In my pounding heart, my love of life sure stands,

Even though I feel humble, I still sweat certain pride,

I buzz with energy, that I can never hide,

 

Somewhat off or simple, this demeanor might seem,

All I really want is human harmony to stream,

If we find fairness in the rivers, instead of social stress,

We can climb the banks, and leave this muddy mess,

Chip away at brilliance, find knowledge on the run,

Rise through the valleys, reach into the sun,

Pull down meaningful faith, and media to trust,

Equality on the earth, and peace that is robust,

 

Voice like a volcano, the internet explodes,

Sometimes my screen glows happily, sometimes woe it bodes,

Silent snow-capped peaks in the dead of summer,

Yet fiery flames spewing, if winter has your number,

Identity comes from how we live and learn,

If our resolution is a rock, it will never burn,

For our hard world to survive, we must pool all our forces,

To protect all good lives, we must fairly share resources,

 

Confidence in peace can get us through each day,

Optimism flows when we climb up all the way,

Get past setbacks, escape the traps we trip,

When we endure, we find the cure, our faith sharp as a whip,

Be true to all we love, forge strength to do what’s right,

Don’t get lost in dreams, past the edge of night,

Got to dig the sunrise, have hope and trust ourselves,

With a confident outlook, our progress deeper delves

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Awareness of Nature

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Awareness of Nature:  Camping in British Columbia – To Get Away

***

Work and stress can give life a frantic feel,

The fever and fret may seem way too real,

I look up to clouds, with my breath falling,

The wind is whistling, weekend-off calling,

Rain burst slants sideways, person’s proud chest sags,

I run above ground, home to pack my bags,

It’s all been planned out – we leave right at five,

We deserve this chance, want to feel alive,

More than a robot, an ordered machine,

This free soul living, a sentient being,

So many days torn, between now and then,

When I get away, won’t get trapped again,

Slowly we pull free from the parking stall,

And we won’t look back, all we need – we haul,

We are on our way, up into the hills,

To camp in the wild, Canadian thrills,

***

Cool cascading falls, rock’s ages shaped sheer,

Trees towering tall, cradle all life here,

Down way far below, on the forest floor,

Miracles abound, a dream scene and much more,

Mossy stumps and ferns, mushrooms hide tree sprites,

Creatures crawl from logs, cold clear creek invites,

Birds sing melodies, both ancient and new,

Grace us for moments, then gone as on cue,

Stunning green playing-field, setting so divine,

True breath of fresh air, no hotel is as fine,

The carpet – softer, on this floor I stand,

This music – sweeter, than a big town band,

Colours dazzle here – more than neon lights,

More intrigue excites, in these forest nights,

My love and I here, cool kids in their tent,

Now our time is free, and the day has been spent,

***

Awake to morning, no alarm to face,

No rushing traffic, no daily rat race,

Rainbows shine in dew, on webs, twigs and grass,

Coffee brewed on flame, of the campfire blasts,

Sitting on camp chairs, no straining muscles,

No aloof boss shouts, while our team hustles,

Instead a squirrel chirps, saying that we’re here,

So we share some nuts, over lunch: pop or beer,

As the day heats up, need not sweat it out,

We head to the lake – good times are about,

Before leaving site, we first douse the fire,

We pack some food tight, guitar to inspire,

The sun follows us, a friend – not a master,

Beneath our feet: mulch, helps us hike faster,

But no rush today, no hypocrite’s whip,

We are far from that, on this camping trip,

***

Climbing through branches, brave greens bless my brow,

Beyond that – sparks gold, lake shining bright now,

Clear to the bottom, aqua shades in glass,

Sand-shores diving deep, mountains sink far past,

Glaciers chiseled time, eons made this place,

This instant is pure, as today keeps pace,

Trees border the lake, hot sun gives this life,

Still: clouds, moon, and stars, fetch glory from strife,

In this fine daytime, greatness comes from love,

All part of nature, some comes from above,

The robin-egg blue, or black with white light,

The feeling we have, can come day or night,

Cool, smooth and flowing, not out on a limb,

We splash down today, get in for a swim,

Floating, paddling, immersed in a dream,

Carried back to camp, by the last sun beam,

***

Final night we pack by crackling fire,

Telling tall stories, as flames twist higher,

An owl reminds us, we are not alone,

Within these late moments, we’ll never go home,

Impression that lasts, we laugh, feast and drink,

Echoing voices, in nature we think,

The crickets and frogs, seem to always know,

Just when we arrive, and when we will go,

Join with their wisdom, their sound mixed with ours,

To keep it simple, here under the stars,

Aware of presence, with no lasting stress,

Just singing again, true needs and no less,

But really we too, feel complex footsteps,

Out in the forest, this reflex is kept,

Sacred harmony, so surely time tells,

True tests of nature, there is nothing else

 

By Mike Scott 09/15

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Absolute Madness

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Painting by Lee Matuga

 

Absolute Madness (2012)

The earth is quaking, waking – you’re faking passion until you make your next dollar,

Don’t delete the last note written in amassed gold, that must be as pure as the finest icy waters,

Your worth is estimated, the trap is baited – Some time unravels until the next catch is made,

 

You play it so fast – It lasts, with no disregard for the social relevance,

Born hypocrite, slow fits are taking over my persistence in sincere elements,

Can’t stop the battle, it rattles and the echoes could drive you insane,

 

Where you travel never was:

Forgotten in emotion,

You’ve found a new mood, a goal too,

Nothing will ever be the same,

~

There is a good route, its absolute,

It could be like it never was,

Found where you never traveled:

Now you’re lost in emotion,

Nothing will ever be the same,

Or will it?

 

The beast is waiting, baiting, no gate for the equine – you could be on the next course,

Growing your wings fast, you will soon sing past the forgiven time when you had to do all their chores,

The feasting is tasty, in the sky a pastry, there’s absolutely no reason not to sink through the clouds,

 

Wash your plate clean, fate seen – mop the mess you have made with the shirt off your back,

Do not leave a new stain, or be seen in pain, wipe up traces of your ungodly red dirt fast,

You are only mortal, there is the portal – you will feel better if you learn to forget

Or will you?

 

The god is tidy the shore is hiding, underneath the majestic moon way above,

The love has a pride and the mood is riding, you are aware your friends have not yet been late,

If you should ever fall, just recall: it’s the absolute madness that we have all made

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Natural teacher

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Branches of searching cedar reach to me,

Immensely kind, strong gestures of a tree,

Knows all that passes, centuries aware,

Embracing glance, an immovable stare,

Rocky bluff stretches, mountain bobs and weaves,

The coloured ground ripples with roots and leaves,

From mulch fern emerge, symmetric green frills,

Random growth springs free, whatever Earth wills,

Waterfalls shining, with bright sparkling gleams,

Hidden moment below, pool deeply dreams,

Creek joins others, brooks become a river,

Dripping wet creature begins to shiver,

Each season, all year, spirits return here,

Teach reason, not fear, forever lurks near

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Steady

Once more. I wrote this about twenty years ago. It is about the struggle with art and mood. The relevance here is that I am working hard to find ways to improve people’s quality of life. This is the main reason why I started this blog. So far it’s been fun, anxious, and sometimes harsh! I am working on revising a few ideas. Good times!

This poem draws on some very deep feelings and some monumental challenges. The ‘resolution’ is more realistic: find shelter, try to be relaxed, be optimistic, have friends, and be good to yourself. Written around 1992.

Again – the dialectic, the opportunity to share ideas, can help solve a lot of problems: boiling down wild ideas into pragmatic truths. Until we are content and the problems that we challenge are solved – we persevere. Taking time to relax is important. This can be a luxury, but learning to relax in difficult situations can enable a steady balance that can encourage success.

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Steady

Thinking about things, outside of this world,

Could have understood it, but now I’m unsure,

Sky’s clouded over – life’s ways become hazy,

Lights fading away, today’s driving me crazy,

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Looking up above at a wet grey sky,

So much sadness and I wonder why,

Rain starts coming, down, down, again,

Soaked to the bone, it’s pouring rain,

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Thinking so hard, mud slides in torrential rain,

Digging for some answers, dug deadly insane,

I made an advance, I know I made a good impression,

Hardly learning my lesson, they say maybe manic depression,

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A cycle of life, a system easy enough to see,

Situation goes to hell, don’t know what to believe,

Thought I had a foothold, but in confusion caught,

Slip-sliding fast, no support for my thoughts,

Slip-sliding too fast…

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A thought flashes brightly in the night of my mind,

Together but all alone,

Try to run for cover, in confusion and fear,

Scared senseless by thunder’s fierce tone,

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Falling down, help! When will I make it out?

I’m up to my neck in a pool of doubt,

Sinking down, down,

Deep down into despair,

Listen to what I say: it’s not too much to bear,

Too much to think,

Here comes the weight of the world landing on my shoulders:

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Split by enlightening,

blistering shock,

nowhere to run and hide, my legs won’t walk,

Like steel rain,

on my brain,

Pain beats ice down on my head,

Wounds still bleeding wounds, already done bled,

….,

Talking bloody blue-sky after the storm we had?

Freezing up cold all hopes that have gone bad,

Frozen…

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Thinking about things inside of this world,

May understand, in fact I’m pretty sure,

Blue skies overdue after the storm we had,

People who find shelter, can always be glad,

….,

Looking up above at a bright blue sky,

So many people see it at any time,

Here comes the weather, for another long day,

Exploding with energy, every single last ray,

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Thinking slowly, from a different perspective,

It is just within reach, found a new objective,

I made the decision, hell made a good impression,

Finally learned the lesson, I can fight off depression,

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So, life beckons, though time again changes,

Not the only one to find so much pain, just,

Work and be taxed, then find a way to relax,

With a stage that can always get better,

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Just wait one second, time rearranges,

Not the only one to find life so strange, just,

Relax and find fun, take the long run,

With a change for the better end

In the clouds

In the rain

Or in the sun

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Ritualization (Soul Occupation)

Can’t see, can’t hear, can’t even think,
There is a form to the madness,
A path from the chaos,
Can’t talk, can’t walk, can’t hold a drink,
There is a flow of the progress,
A jump from the pathos
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Framed passage to the next level,
Still holding on, Building and grasping,
Chosen item for the next ritual,
Rhythm for life is taking control
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There is a new birth to the desire,
Want something to move you higher,
Actually finding more and more,
Soul occupation
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Might try, might push, might even fall,
There is a growth of the presence,
A path and a method,
Might drink, might smoke, might even call,
There is a room for the distance,
A jump to go get it
***
Graded passage to the next level,
Still holding on, Building and grasping,
There’s a catalyst for the next ritual,
Rhythm of life, Take control
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There is a new stage of the desire,
Want something just to inspire,
Actually finding more and more,
Soul occupation
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Just learn, just yearn, yah try to take,
There is a class for the madness,
But not for the chaos,
Just work, just stretch, but just don’t break,
There’s payment for the time spent,
But not for the anxious
***
Hard labour for the next promotion,
Still holding on, building and gasping,
You’re the subject of the next ritual,
Rhythm of life, Takes control
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There is satisfaction of the desire,
Everyday something to inspire,
Forever more,
Soul occupation
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Do we make it? (Daily Quest)

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Do we make it?

Let’s face it,

Life changes all the time,

Chasing the dream, growing the treasure,

Are they going to take away all of our pleasure?

 

Just for a day, follow the concrete,

Surely going to claw back until we are complete,

The sidewalk, the curb,

The road with no freedom,

All it is there for, is to channel our need of:

 

Forward progression,

Look ahead:

I’ve got a compass that is chipped in one place,

It keeps on spinning, and I can still read the face,

Something magnetic about the dreams that we chase,

First we find the map, now we run the maze,

 

Finding out life is easy,

Remember what you need,

Now, it doesn’t seem so easy,

Unravel time’s travel as you gradually succeed,

 

Do you hate me?

Push through it – I have loved you all the time,

Finding the moment, fix the reception,

So it can be seen in its true complexion,

 

Just to be alright now, create a new pathway,

Then come back later, much before the last day,

Of the week, the month,

The year with no ending,

Can the vision be realized without comprehending?

 

Forward progression,

I’ve got a thought about changing this place,

But, it’s not going to matter, if I can’t make a case,

Abstract solution, to help win this race,

Putting words into action, in an empty space,

(in a peaceful place, in our mind)

 

Finding out life is easy,

Predict just what you’ll need,

Now, it doesn’t seem so easy,

Envision time’s precision as you gradually succeed

 

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The Mind’s Back Door

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You won’t know what you’ve got until you get inside,

No, you won’t know a thing until you’ve been and tried,

Wake up into our eternal home,

We’re on our own, but not alone,

 

You won’t know what you’ve got until you get inside,

No, you won’t know a thing until you’ve been and tried,

Wake up into the great unknown,

Thoughts are the wealth, found all alone,

 

Eyes looking at me like they know something,

Looking at me with some kind of offering,

Wise and kind guide may take your hand,

Present a solution, save all of this land,

 

Conceive it, if you can,

Believe in, a master plan,

Conceive it, it has all been planned,

Understand,

 

Look to the skies above, the clouds are boiling,

If God’s looking down, why are we still toiling?

Wake up into our eternal home,

Into this place we all are thrown,

 

The fair earth is below and the weather’s rising,

We need rest, it is so compromising,

Walking through thoughts made of stone,

The energy within us, seldom shown,

 

You’re looking at me as if I’m insane,

You can’t be right, and I can’t explain,

Try hard, real hard, to figure things out,

Feelings bottle up, think away doubt,

(A little spirit)

 

What are you looking for?

Find it right outside your mind’s back door,

 

What are you looking for?

Find it right outside my mind’s back door,

 

The fair earth is below, media hypnotizing,

We crave the sun, it’s not surprising,

Walking through thought, we must atone,

The energy within us waits to be shown . . .

Follow inside into insight

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Intermittent Intimate

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Some might say, ‘opposites attract’.  In today’s world social situations can be very diverse and people can be brought together for a vast number of reasons.  People meet through random encounters, through work, school, on-line or many other types of association.

The following poem seems to be fairly self-explanatory to me.  I think it may reflect a very common relationship in modern society.  I would strive for more consistency, and it may be difficult to exist like this, but I think it is pretty normal.  I think that if love is found, perseverance is favourable.  It is also important to have awareness of when a relationship becomes too hard to handle, and if it is having a negative impact on you.  If you are living with negativity, this may arise from a lack of understanding, a backlash of your own behaviour, or also from the significant other’s behaviour. It is important to stand up for your health. If your health is being threatened – it may be necessary to challenge the status quo; Recognize the needs of others, but also assert your own needs.

Relationships can be very complex.  It would seem that love needs to be fiercely nurtured to promote health in a long-term relationship.  Open channels of communication, awareness of each other’s needs and willingness to compromise can be a good set of tools to work with.  When making decisions, I try to do this in a calm mood and always use reason – even when emotion also plays a role (or especially when emotion plays a role).   If we try to see the net outcome of continuing a relationship, and see more benefits than costs, both emotionally and in terms of the health of all individuals affected by the relationship:  Perseverance is the best thing.  Sometimes we do have to look out for number one, but I also try to take all others into account when making decisions – within reason.

The Pace (Intermittent Intimate)

 

It’s raining today, but it’s kind of intermittent,

While yesterday’s massive storm left me drenched,

Even the calm does not refresh,

After the moments of stress,

You were twisting your words like a wrench,

 

Sticking in my head, where you have thrown them,

Where they have gone and still wait,

In my heart, you could total,

Where they have gone and soon fade

A ballot cast by the voter,

Rumbling low like a motor,

 

There’s a pain in my head, but it’s kind of intermittent,

While yesterday’s massive thirst has been quenched,

Now the peace is not quiet,

But like an internal riot,

I am twisting around in this trench,

 

You do not know, that you have carved it,

Where I’ve gone and still twist,

And I am still starving,

But the inner strengths never missed,

Just sometimes a target,

(really, just hardly?)

 

Roll with it,

Intimate,

Roll with it,

Always keep up with the pace,

 

It’s just another night, and the calm is intermittent,

Once in a while there is a good time to play,

It seems the calm can be refreshed,

And we can leave the daily mess,

A new mood comes around like sun rays,

 

Falling on our skin,

Where it is felt the most,

Where they are warm, but may burn,

In the world that we chose,

Where they are warm and we learn,

And we are getting so close –  love gently flows,

 

Roll with it, intimate,

Intermittent Intimate,

Intimate, stick with it… Intermittent Intimate

Premonition Now

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Painting: Lee Matuga

 

This is a poem about optimism.  I believe that optimism can contribute to success.  In psychology we learned about a ‘self-fulfilling prophecy’.  Doesn’t it seem like a good idea to be optimistic when these occur?

I have found that certain things can encourage optimism, such as: sunshine, looking up to the stars on a clear night and/or sitting by the waterside, like a river, lake or ocean. A connection with nature often helps calm the nerves and even promotes optimism.  If that time is endangered: this can be fuel to challenge troubles.

Some people are hardwired to have the desire to persevere and maintain or regain optimism. Even a walk in the park, a glimpse of the mountains, or gazing at the sky can help one gain strength by proving that nature will persevere…  Well then: So can I.

I think anytime is a good time to be optimistic. I am not saying that I always have unquestionable optimism, but I always strive for it.

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Premonition Now – Positively Change

When the season guides all life’s dealing,

There will never be uncertain feelings,

But the recent changes in the weather,

Finds it lighter at the time of day and…

 

Another passage, you are thinking of it,

There is not a second you can ever doubt it,

You have changed – they are changing too, so,

Just about the time you make your move, no:

 

Disconcerting feelings,

Pondering unreal things,

Wishing it would finally happen:

Know that it is always

Sparkling in the water,

 

Jumping in, diving in,

Knowing only the stream as we are flowing,

Cold and moving, strong and proving,

There is always change,

 

When the timing’s pushing on your healing,

It might tend to send you through the ceiling,

And the recent changes from the mood swing,

Makes it harder, as if we can’t be choosing,

 

Every moment you are thinking of it,

There is not a minute you can ever doubt it,

They must change while you are changing too, so,

Just about the time you break on through, know:

 

A little ray of sunshine makes you happier than

The cloudy crowd that’s all around,

and dull and dim and on the ground,

Days fallen over your shoulder made you feel so sky-high,

Chance you couldn’t get hold of, made you feel like nighttime.

 

When the climate’s right upon your feeling,

It would even seem like you are stealing,

But the truth is: you are now the real thing,

Just like when you accidentally motioned:

 

Provision for good feelings,

Envisioning new real things,

Wishing success is happening:

Know that it is always

Sparkling in the water,

 

Jumping in, diving in,

Knowing only the stream as we are flowing,

Cold and moving, a song that’s soothing,

There is positively change,

 

A little ray of starlight makes you happier than

The darkened space that’s all around,

and full and real and the only sound,

One fallen over your shoulder made you feel so sky high,

One that you got a hold of, makes now the right time,

 

Jumping in, strive to win, following the river that is flowing,

Cold and moving, strong and proving,

There is positively change

 

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Days

I want to emphasize a point in maintaining optimism and not falling into despair. Part of this is about learning to harness the power of the future, and of possible future joy. As I mentioned, joy may be extremely rare, coming up – once in a blue moon… but this is all in perspective. Joy can be as simple as a conversation with a friend or a feeling of peace in art or beauty. It is often necessary to endure situations until we get to the next contented moment, and find that next joy. In some cases mindfulness may be best set on the future, with reminders from the past of what is good, and what we can expect. I pray that we all have something, however simple and temporary that we can look forward to: a drink to quench our thirst, a vision to behold, or the conversation of a friend or family to look forward to. Even our own creativity and thought can help keep us find content. It is important to persevere till we get to that moment. Enjoy the present, but if that is not possible, there is still something ahead that makes endurance worth waiting for.

The following poem was written in the mid to late nineties. My recent conversation brings me back to it.

Days

Got to choose your next move,
Got to do what you think
Is really going to make a difference,
In your little world,

Plush carpets and amber lights,
A ride that’s free in many ways,
Cushions on a couch save me,
Living hell for many days,
Long days,
How did I pass my time today,

Hard cold floors and bright lights,
My mind is cool most always.
Patterns on the walls they change,
In never-ending hallways,
Fall days,
How can I pass my time this way?
Anyways,

I’m climbing through. I’m climbing out,
It’s only me, just with everything else,
My soul within everything else,

Got to groove as you proceed,
Got to do what you think
Is really going to take you all the way,
To the next contented moment,

Tight with my fretful friend,
Fingers dance on steel to play,
Notes will tell the mood of life,
Come back for another day,
Any day,
How can we pass our time today?

Sitting on groves of green grass,
Trying to cure the grey day,
My blood thirst for red wine,
Just to pass the night away,
Far away,
How did I pass my time today?

Climbing free, climbing out,
It’s just me, with everyone else,
We’re so close to climbing out,
It is only work, forget everything else,
The soul without everything else,

Change of pace and growing old,
Forget about the distant days,
Still need to understand the soul,
And have something good to say,
Every day,
How did you pass your time today?

Finally free, finally out,
The soul is one and everything else,

Finally free, finally out,
The soul is one just with everything else!

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The conclusion is a bit finite, but I really feel that it is whole. You need to have something good to say about every day: My couch was comfortable, patterns on the wall were interesting, and in my case, I played guitar. I recommend hobbies and mindfulness in simple pleasure that one can draw on in times when it is difficult to easily endure. It is important to be aware of potential joy as we are experiencing it. It is also necessary in times of stress, as a means of coping: to remember that there are always other moments to look forward to, sometimes just by looking inside.