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Sacred Spot

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A Look-Out in Nature:  Perceptions – Free of Stigma and Economy’s Social Trials

When there is absolutely nothing better to do,

I read a book, few of ancient eyes ever knew,

Why sit passively writing past the end of days’ view,

The sky stretched across the city, the snapshot stays true,

The bright shining sphere lights up every page outside,

No one has seen this before – the day’s light has never lied,

This moment waited forever until now to be tried,

Vision reels with the core view – the stigma why I cried,

My perception is not seen, by anyone but me,

Injustice of a few things, are hard for them to see,

With righteous eyes opening, connecting is a key,

My cognition is grinding until the day I’m free,

Yesterday had good hours, now – maybe today too,

Have to keep the world spinning, when worries may seem few,

One moment of comfort falters, and that is one sure cue,

Proving complex points of view, can really take you through,

You see nothing that I claim – my writing seems a bore,

Last verse there’s a challenge that you really can’t ignore,

Just like the convenience you bought from the closest store,

The package seems the same as every one before,

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After long hours, I reflect on the day…

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When there is absolutely nothing better to do,

I may seek dark hues aged-fine to help me make it through,

I may play on fields of grass if I start to feel so blue,

The absolute strongest way to live, just known by me and you:

Just to stare at the sky across the country that is bright but grey,

The white clouds have drifted beyond the trees where I lay,

Fly wings, fly – chase distant dreams overlapping the day,

Flocks of birds pass by above, spinning high as I pray,

Eagle circling my prayer of love, shadowed in the seas,

Salty schools of fish spied, I sit in the tops of trees,

Then up to the mountains, where the ancient waters freeze,

Just below, scenic plateau, there is a telling breeze,

The look-out, hidden from economy’s social trials,

My face is not well-known, but is seen by all the miles,

The evolution of this place, the inner ghost it riles,

Nature laughs among itself, the true free-thinker smiles,

As I stop to think, really summon my spirit thought,

I gaze far and wide- imagine each secluded plot,

What will this environment dictate, What else has been taught?

Where, when and how can I rise in life,

as to this sacred spot?

 

I wrote this today about a hike yesterday…. There are a few other meanings involved.  Feel free to ask.

Scientific Dreams

Hi there.  I wanted to put in a more inspired poem, before I put away my blogging keyboard for a few days.  I wrote this today.  I have recorded a vocal track for it, and will be working on the guitar track this evening.  I hope you enjoy.  I am picturing blues/folk/hard rock.

I’ve got to roll

And I’ve got a soul

And I can’t believe it all anymore

Got to get round

Can’t get down

And I can’t believe it all anymore

Believe in the soul and you will find out all it’s worth,

Found out what it means today – an absolute rebirth,

Believe in the soul and you will find out what it means,

We are all connected in the universal screens, Yup

Chorus:

I’ve got to roll now,

I’ve got a soul now,

And I can believe now that I am up,

Got to get round now,

I can’t get down now,

And I can believe now that I am up,

Wake up into the soul and find out all it’s worth,

Found out what it means awaken an absolute rebirth,

Believing in the soul, yah, and find out what it means,

We are all connected in the scientific dreams, Yah

Chasing the action

That’s just a fraction

Of what is going on at the other side

Now I think it’s true

I’m connected to you

Everything, every one – right inside

(chorus)

dreaming

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Just a last minute thought for the day.

 

Dreaming…

Blue in the face,

From yelling and screaming,

Can anyone hear what I’ve been dreaming?

My eyes are watering from staring at the sun,

The most perfect of circles has caught me undone,

First there is one,

Now there are eight globes streaming,

Can anyone see what I’ve been dreaming?

My body is shaking and its hard to find sleep,

The hill I’ve been climbing is forever steep,

Where is the top?

I look up as angels are teaming,

Can anyone feel what I’ve been dreaming?

I can taste the grit and smell the road’s dirt,

I made a fortune and then lost my shirt,

Not far to go…

The morning fog begins steaming,

Can anyone tell what I’ve been dreaming?

Mood: Balance through mindfulness

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Painting: Lee Matuga

Ya…  Mindfulness can be a challenge when what you are being forced to do something that is in some way horrible for you.  I hate to think of the different nastiness that a person can go through.  Real pain or disgust is hard to bury with thought, or to escape from just by thinking, but through practice like meditation:  it is possible to some degree.

In this case, I suggest relying on the promise of that ‘cup of water’ to quench thirst, or find some moment of content.  Looking to a conversation with a friend or a view of the mountains, lake or even trees in the big city could help many people. 

Humour is GREAT.  To see the humour in things may in fact outweigh many other types of mindfulness.   If that is not available, sometimes the imagination can be a great get-away:  picturing what we want to picture.  We can reach this through a memory, a potential future or even a fantasy. 

Mindfulness of the present is most often described as the answer, but other forms of mindfulness (eg. A memory, something to look forward to, or a fantasy) can also bridge that time that is difficult to endure. I seems that way to me anyways.

I feel a bit lazy to be drawing on my past lyrics for some of my blogs, but I am making sure to spend time on fresh ones, like yesterday…  This below – was written many years ago.

Mood

Pointing at it, pouring into it,

Biding my time.

Thinking of it, yearning for it,

Biding my time.

Push … Push …No answers, No escape. Where will I go?

Will I ever advance to a thoughtful path?

Quiet decision and Then,

The calm nirvana surrounds my universe.

Permeates my consciousness.

Will I be here for long?  Will it be here for long?

Will I come back soon?  Will I falter?

My world is protected on all sides,

Now.

Calm fulfilling energy, Peaceful train of thoughts travels to different corners of my mind,

Chorus:           The future, the past.

Investigating all that is present, on the journey.

How will it continue?

What is next, and will it be safe?

Stay peaceful, if you are strong, smart and modest enough.

Still peaceful – considerate,

Bold.  Pervasive.  Thirst for knowledge.

Drinking from it, drowning in it,

Biding my time,

Striving for it, Straying from it,

Biding my time,

Reach …   Reach . . . No answers, No release, Where will I go,

Will I ever advance from this thoughtless mood?

Loud intrusion and then

Vile anxiety surrounds my universe,

Permeates my consciousness

Will I be here for long?  Will it be here much longer?

Will I leave here soon?

Will I escape?

My world is closing in on all sides,

Leave Now, Fearful train of thoughts travels to different corners of my mind,

Steam rises of the distant stress, Here we go again- another test.

Chorus

Come take the test.

What is the test?  Maybe balance – the ability to focus: find content.  We all go through it.  Nirvana…  Is it a myth??  A band – Yup.  Part of everyday life for people – I hope so, even for a few moments.   I’m not going to look up the definition.  I just trust that it involves great balance and content.  In this life- I would suggest that if it does exist: for most people it is temporary.  I’m not talking levitating or anything like that.  I’m talking: a cup of water when you’re thirsty, a beautiful sunset, a great conversation, a great tune in a enjoyable environment.  Hmmm…  What else is purely pleasurable?  An A1 mood.  The ability to shut everything negative out through mindfulness?  Enlightenment??  Really??   How complex could it be? I am watering down a very complex and revered concept.  Please add a comment, so I can offer a defense.

Mindfulness till comforted

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When sorrow is pouring down like a torrential sleet,

No shelter, no warmth,

A coat with a broken zipper,

Become the elements.

Become the ice, become the aching water in your shoes,

Become the emptiness.

It does not surround you.  You surround it.  You will outlast it.

In time a ray of warmth will pierce the pain.

For now you are your world,

In time you will be refreshed,

Colours of peace and whispers of comfort

Will soon touch your life,

You cannot ignore them,

As we carry on to the next content moment,

With a cup of water to quench our thirst,

warmth

and a fine light to see by

I have started to take on a course to help people suffering from depression and mania (bipolar disorder).  There are a lot of things to be happy for, but sometimes they are so hard to see- obscured by troubles and the haze of depression.  Sometimes we have had a bad run of luck.  We often have a lot to think about.  Truth is, I am alone right now, and my writings have been inspired by music in the background: Elvis.  Not a fan of Elvis?  I never heard anyone say that before.   Again, this poem is about mindfulness. Mindfulness is a great tool in overcoming boredom.

Focus in Mindfulness

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Sunday night… pretty low key.  I’m thinking about some stuff that I wrote about ‘focus.’  It’s a big topic.  It could be like a type of career, or a part of social life.  It could be one song or one word.  In fact it is one word that basically means: “To direct one’s attention to something.”  There are other meanings as well.

So ‘focus’:  that’s like your next meal, relaxation with TV, music –or whatever.  Like something to think about, laugh or sigh or just focus on until there is something else to do (or that needs to be done).  When we can get thru the moment, even by looking forward to seeing a meal, a jam, family, a television show or anything like a focus:  the dull times don’t seem so dull.  I’ve read a lot about this mindfulness- just paying attention to the moment.  I think it helps avoid thinking about things that aren’t as necessary.  Just get into the moment: work, play whatever. When you watch the little details: you can enjoy the moment or at least find the patience you need to get through to the next content moment.  It has really helped me to maintain peace of mind by keeping myself focused on the task at hand, and enjoying the really fine details of what is going on.  Keeping my mind busy – even with something simple like mowing the lawn or listening to some tunes can actually make it easier to just get by.  Picturing the process can help facilitate a productive state of mind in the present, while also being ready for the next sequence of events.

This is a poem that is troubled in some ways, but involves focus on the environment.  It was written over a decade ago.  In the end you will see the return to an ongoing concern.   For many this concern is sobriety.  Others might view this resolution to be a way of avoiding bad weather.  Mindfulness can help with a variety of problems, including:  weathering the storm, and also avoiding substance use.

The poem here….AGAIN… is not really on line with the exact sentiments of the blog, but in the start of this blog page, I decided to put some of my writing with each one of these psychological (and hopefully practical) blogs.  I hope that it is a literature mix that will hold your attention/focus.  By the way, in my life, I have rarely had a drink before noon, and when I have, there would have been a good reason, like holidays, or a recognized celebration…

Hang Ups

In the vast expanse of human society

I explore the experience and taste sobriety,

Then changing a vow, which breaks early in the day,

I come back to where I was, and I’m on my way,

The sun like me is high in the sky

The smoke is rising

The lizard crawls

The waves are crashing,

Like bar room brawls

A reaction is surprising

Saved up money for strip malls

The dollars I’m stashing are enjoyed by all,

In the midday hours the seconds tick by

I walk the streets in hopes the fast cars comply,

I might hail a taxi, but I’d rather walk,

Down the corridor on a bus amidst casual talk

Above cars fuming

The seagull flies,

The traffic is buzzing

Forlorn are the cries,

Dark clouds are looming,

There’s water in the skies,

Umbrellas by the dozens can help keep me dry

Refreshing Exercise

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I got off from work just after lunch that day… in the spring.  I drove to the lake to go for a hike.  I hiked up the mountainside on a trail that I have traveled many times.  Weeks ago: it was a different trail.  It had since been transformed.  Partly up the mountain I found that snow had piled up.  It was as if a dump-truck had just been emptied.  After a certain line of altitude and colder temperature, snow just appeared, instantly coming into vision in coldly-carved drifts, as I climbed the steps right before it, to bring it into view.  I did not expect it, but I was still dressed appropriately with a warm jacket, boots and gloves.  By the time I had reached the look-out point (about an hour and a half up the mountain) the snow was up to six or seven feet deep in places.  As I hiked up, it was not particularly cold, but the wind was gusting strong.  By the time I was at the look-out, clumps of moss and branches were falling from the tree-tops high above this British Columbia rain forest floor.

I had not planned on hiking all the way up, but the rain was holding off and the wind was inspiring in a way.  I took the challenge or the dare.  It’s not that it was much out of my way, in what is a short hike.  I had previously hiked the entire eight-hour hike across the ridge to the waterfall at the other-side of the lake, also in snowy conditions.  I did know the terrain.  I had also let a friend know where I was going, so at least I had taken appropriate steps.

Just to make it to the look-out was a invigorating reward for me.  Spiritual, in a sense.   I looked out over the lake, far across where snow drifts piled.  Only months before this had all been bare rock.  The wind continued to gust and it was not before long that I headed down.   When I got home – still in my steel-toed work boots (which made alright hiking boots), I wrote this poem.

 Motion to Create – Shaped by the Elements  (2013)

The rhythm of the tree we hang on frees us,
Trembling in the wind – And then falling back to earth,
A collective sigh in the social group-
We are free to express our inner thoughts,
The wasted ones left behind to rot,
No flavour in their life,
They twist in the breeze,
And fall to the leaves, forgotten and withering – never to make the next transition,  Forgotten,
Resurrected in the floods of Spring,
Flowing back into the system,
A revitalized memory – a new form:
At once gleaming in the sun, and still reflecting the past, the remains long gone,
Do we speak of the idle stone?  Piled, buried- just blending in,
The snow melts, the streams burst, the feet scuffle and the rock is shaken free,
The new momentum carries us far,
Forever moving with the changing time,
We choose the beaten path or forge a new way,
Shaped by the factory that is all around us,
Machines driven by an initial pulse,
Only producing what is within our reach

Today, I climbed the trail again.  It is uncertain times.  Work is slow.  It is hard finding hours and the hours that I do get seem to drag on endlessly, and painfully with injury.  I have very little interest in the subject matter of building construction.  It is essential, but I feel that my energy could be spent on work that is more meaningful to me, and a greater use of my skills.  A transition into research and psychology is happening, but it is hard to see if I can (ever) make a full career change.  On the trail today there was a sign printed out saying that a cougar had been spotted on September 8th.  I was happy to have my dog with me as a little added protection.  Respect for nature can take many shapes.  It can even allow a person to take a break from their problems and find inspiration.  Our own special spirituality.  Exercise is also a key to good health (and mental health).  Exercise, nature and being inspired each day can definitely contribute to better health.  You can take the stairs or hike a mountain.

Ritualization (Soul Occupation)

Can’t see, can’t hear, can’t even think,
There is a form to the madness,
A path from the chaos,
Can’t talk, can’t walk, can’t hold a drink,
There is a flow to the progress,
A jump for the pay-offs
 
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Framed passage to the next level,
Still holding on, Building and grasping,
Chosen item for the next ritual,
Rhythm for life is taking control
 
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There is a new birth to the desire,
I Want something to move us higher,
Actually finding more and more,
Soul occupation
 
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Might try, might push, might even fall,
There is a growth of the presence,
A math and a method,
Might drink, might smoke, might even call,
There is a room for the distance,
A jump to go get it
 
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Graded passage to the next level,
Still holding on, Building and grasping,
There’s a catalyst for the next ritual,
Rhythm of life, Take control
 
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There is a new stage of the desire,
I Want something just to inspire,
Actually finding more and more,
Soul occupation
 
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Just yearn, just learn, just try to take,
There is a class for the madness,
But not for the chaos,
Just work, just stretch, just don’t break,
There is a payment for the time spent,
But not for the anxious
 
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Hard labour for the next promotion,
Still holding on, building and blasting,
You’re in charge of the next ritual,
Rhythm of life, is taking control
 
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There is a satisfaction of the desire,
Everyday something to inspire,
Forever more,
forever more
forever more
Soul occupation
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Words to Say

I just wanted to say a few words tonight.  I am back at regular work today – really full on into hard work, but it went well.  I had a meeting also … seemed a bit apprehensive, but it also went well.

I have talked a lot about perspective and a holistic viewpoint.  Really???  That’s pretty difficult to pin down.  Say that I call the view of a macrocosm as holistic.  That’s fine, but it has been brought to my attention that a truly holistic view might be very hard to achieve.  My friend asked, “How could one person be able to see that much – the views of others…  six billion others plus… ?”  Well, I think for our purposes – that is stretching it a bit.

Anyways that’s just something that has been pointed out to me.  Of course, for a single practice: A whole would not encompass as much of a universal view;  Rather at one time – one would strive to address all of the aspects that affect one life… one person’s macrocosm?

I try to be approachable, yet with a lot of this talk… it’s just me.  I know that I address the ironies a lot, synchronicity even.  Really I am stable and steady!  These connections are treated as anomalies. My perception and focus seem to be drawn a certain way sometimes, but I am quickly able to regain focus in any practical situation. Really these are totally objective views. The meaning in synchronicity is often subjective only in the connection (that others cannot see). If these experiences were falsifiable, they would be totally objective examples of the phenomenon – beyond common science. Hopefully I will have the opportunity in academics that my hard work and achieving productivity will happen enough to get me past that old stigmatizing focus.   Do you know that if you send a reply – it goes through my email first?  Feel free to drop me a line.

The following poem was written in a hurry, but I held on to it.  I picture it to a reggae beat.  It is supposed to be happy.  🙂

Say . . .

What you mean is words to say,

We’re going to say it our own way,

What you mean is words to find,

We’re going to find it in our own mind,

What you need is things to see,

We’re going to find what we believe,

What you need is things to know,

We’re going to find it high and low,

Nothing can be taken for granted,

Even the truth slightly slanted,

Or the rhyme and the rhythm falsely taken,

What you want is peace of mind,

We’re going to stay happy for all time,

What you want is peace forever,

We might not be that clever,

What we want is things to remain,

We’re going to find it change again,

What we want is a few more friends,

That will stay until the end

Sounds a bit sour perhaps.  The bridge: “The rhyme and the rhythm falsely taken”- It is all about interpretation.  Hard to judge sometimes, especially without a tone of voice or other indication… Perceptions can change too.  Add music – it could be totally different.  Really the conclusion is up:  Make more friends… Isn’t that positive?  Maybe it’s ambiguous.  I hope you appreciate it.  That is my intention.

Anyways, I hope you are well, and this sideways poetry hasn’t put you off…  Best wishes, whatever time of day – where and when you are reading this.

Vision

My craft in recovery.

Whoa…..  I drew this in the nineties, fully aware that our world in this life is only the beginning to our consciousness. I still have many viewpoints similar to back then, but I am able to make decisions that are less troublesome today, having digested my years of waking dreams. I know now to pay more attention to the concrete demands of daily life and have more patience for decision-making in emotional & dream-like situations.

The poem below was written as I went to university.  In fact, I put it as the title page for an essay on Shamanism (as an alternate healing treatment).  I got an A- and was a bit disappointed in that, but looking back, some of my work was too heavily influenced by my moods and any A was acceptable!  The poem again looks at perspectives and awareness.  It is the mood that can be like a dream state that when grounded in practical applications can help us shape our consciousness for the better of our world.

Vision

Stranger places, I have never been,

Things like this, I have never seen,

Living in a world that lives with me,

My body confined, but my mind is free,

The illusion of daylight buries the gem,

Obscuring the truths to be found in them,

The mystic sees through the physical light,

Past the material to eternal night,

Ancient lands where I have never been,

Strangers faces that I have never seen,

Exploring places in another time,

Discovering treasures locked in my mind,

As I awake, the gem still glitters in my mind,

Then I open my eyes and leave it behind,

Surely the day could join in such travels,

The gift that the night always unravels,

Once forgotten, now the apple is rotten,

Without ever eating the last bite,

Falling down with a triumphant sound,

The dying dream leaves seeds for the light.